The Fall Out! The Relationship! The End
Dec 8, 05
When it comes to me in relationships, I find myself in a bit of an irregular pattern. I can’t seem to balance myself when it comes to things like work, school, and a girlfriend. I keep hearing things like the ever so powerful and sometimes dreadful “I Love You”. In my opinion the most powerful words someone can ever say to someone else and is also something to not be taken lightly. When it comes to me and love, I don’t know if im ready yet. I can’t see myself saying it, well for now anyways. I almost feel as though I should be saying it but still can’t let go of the past. When someone says they love you, are you obligated to say it back or is it just guilt, and you feel as though you have to say it to satisfy someone else’s needs. Telling someone you love them when you know at heart you don’t, I believe is the highest of crimes. It is at the top of my morals list and is something that I could never do to someone, so don’t ask.
Partying at a young age? Recently I have been wondering when you become too old to party? I see young adults in high school with their big aspirations when it comes to post secondary education and one of the biggest topics is the wild parties and drinking. Over the past 30 years the age that kids start drinking at is getting younger and younger. Drug use is also getting to kids at a younger age and become more and more a part of everyone’s lives. I have seen people waste away on drugs and go from High Roller to death bed roller. As much as we like to think that drugs and alcohol are a release their just as much a addiction. Having been involved in these activities for than six years of my life and have been in rehab twice I think I can honestly say I know the ins and outs of drug and substance abuse. Once you’re in, and the longer you stay in the harder it is to get out. I see people that would never even consider doing drugs steel and backstab just to get their hands on ten dollars worth of cocaine. The main point that im trying to get across to all my viewers is when getting yourself involved in such activities be sure to watch yourself and the people around you. If things start to get out of control, don’t ever be afraid to ask for help from your friends or your
family.
Abstaining from sex. Who would have ever though that I would have lasted close to two months? I have come to realize that sex and sexuality are a huge part of mine and most teenagers’ lives. It’s always a topic of discussion, it seems to always be happening in my house, and its always on my mind. Between the overbearing media and the pressures at school it’s a wonder that there are any virgins left at all. The 18 year old virgin seems to be almost extinct. Sex is the new wave culture, it’s a driving force and most importantly sex sells. If someone were to write a book about love and someone else to write a book about love and have sex in it, which do you think would sell? When I write in my LJ the same thing happens, I write about sex people listen and write about love, well not so much. Why is it that people have focused their minds to only look, listen, and talk about sex?
Dec 23, 05
How I knew my X was not for me! One day we were driving and we were talking about my past. We some how got on the topic of Miss Nadine and a fight of sorts broke out. Then she asked me “if Nadine were to come up to you and say that she loved you would you go back to her?” I was so stunned about the question for a few seconds, and then I thought, would I go back to her? Somewhere deep down inside I knew that I would and at that moment I knew Sanja was not the one for me. I know now that I don’t love Nadine the way that I use too but the fact that I would still go back to her was all I needed to know and showed me that I was with the wrong girl. Not that Nadine is right for me, but rather that she’s still the only one I love. So when I said to my X that I would not go back to Nadine I lied. For this I am sorry. I wish things could have worked out better between us but it didn’t and if your reading this you should know Sanja I am sorry.
When it comes to me in relationships, I find myself in a bit of an irregular pattern. I can’t seem to balance myself when it comes to things like work, school, and a girlfriend. I keep hearing things like the ever so powerful and sometimes dreadful “I Love You”. In my opinion the most powerful words someone can ever say to someone else and is also something to not be taken lightly. When it comes to me and love, I don’t know if im ready yet. I can’t see myself saying it, well for now anyways. I almost feel as though I should be saying it but still can’t let go of the past. When someone says they love you, are you obligated to say it back or is it just guilt, and you feel as though you have to say it to satisfy someone else’s needs. Telling someone you love them when you know at heart you don’t, I believe is the highest of crimes. It is at the top of my morals list and is something that I could never do to someone, so don’t ask.
Partying at a young age? Recently I have been wondering when you become too old to party? I see young adults in high school with their big aspirations when it comes to post secondary education and one of the biggest topics is the wild parties and drinking. Over the past 30 years the age that kids start drinking at is getting younger and younger. Drug use is also getting to kids at a younger age and become more and more a part of everyone’s lives. I have seen people waste away on drugs and go from High Roller to death bed roller. As much as we like to think that drugs and alcohol are a release their just as much a addiction. Having been involved in these activities for than six years of my life and have been in rehab twice I think I can honestly say I know the ins and outs of drug and substance abuse. Once you’re in, and the longer you stay in the harder it is to get out. I see people that would never even consider doing drugs steel and backstab just to get their hands on ten dollars worth of cocaine. The main point that im trying to get across to all my viewers is when getting yourself involved in such activities be sure to watch yourself and the people around you. If things start to get out of control, don’t ever be afraid to ask for help from your friends or your
family.
Abstaining from sex. Who would have ever though that I would have lasted close to two months? I have come to realize that sex and sexuality are a huge part of mine and most teenagers’ lives. It’s always a topic of discussion, it seems to always be happening in my house, and its always on my mind. Between the overbearing media and the pressures at school it’s a wonder that there are any virgins left at all. The 18 year old virgin seems to be almost extinct. Sex is the new wave culture, it’s a driving force and most importantly sex sells. If someone were to write a book about love and someone else to write a book about love and have sex in it, which do you think would sell? When I write in my LJ the same thing happens, I write about sex people listen and write about love, well not so much. Why is it that people have focused their minds to only look, listen, and talk about sex?
Dec 23, 05
How I knew my X was not for me! One day we were driving and we were talking about my past. We some how got on the topic of Miss Nadine and a fight of sorts broke out. Then she asked me “if Nadine were to come up to you and say that she loved you would you go back to her?” I was so stunned about the question for a few seconds, and then I thought, would I go back to her? Somewhere deep down inside I knew that I would and at that moment I knew Sanja was not the one for me. I know now that I don’t love Nadine the way that I use too but the fact that I would still go back to her was all I needed to know and showed me that I was with the wrong girl. Not that Nadine is right for me, but rather that she’s still the only one I love. So when I said to my X that I would not go back to Nadine I lied. For this I am sorry. I wish things could have worked out better between us but it didn’t and if your reading this you should know Sanja I am sorry.