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i'm scared of being left alone,behind. i'm scared of losing people. i'm scared i have already.
i love music more than anything. and people who understand and want to be there.
i wish for someone. i wish i would believe the things i tell myself everyday. i wish i would shut up and get over it.
im scared of being a mundane, boring and pityful person that i know i can be.
things i love the most are, music, debauchery the brain.
i wish someone would notice me
-I'm scared of disappointing people, im scared of failing in life and being alone in life.
-the things that i love the most are my friends, those who are genuine people and the people who help me get through the stupid day to day bullshit that seems like such a big deal at the time but looking back at it, it really isnt. without those people i dont know where id be.
-i want to be able to kno that i am doing things right and also that im not a failure. i want to kno that im loved, i want to know that people like me for who i am and i want to be sure of myself because at the moment, im not sure about what people think of me and i dont really know what to think of myself. its hard to explain. but yeah. some people probably understand where im coming from.
I'm scared of failure. I love my boyfriend the most but it's fucking scary. confession- I cheated on him a long time ago and hes never found out and i cant ruin it now for something that didnt mean anything.
I wish I could tell people the full story.
I wish I didnt have to feel every inch of me.
i want to talk to someone who understands
but no one does and i dont expect them to
i had everything and now its gone
One of my friends abused trust and is now lying about it. im so angry.
i restarted an a really important old friendship and ruined it again when i was drunk.
i regret that.
i wish i had , someone. because i don't anymore.
and getting over people is the hardest of all things to do.
i seem to have too much to confess.
i wish i wasnt posting it all on your livejournal under anonymous.
i wish i could post it all on my own livejournal and not feel bad for feeling some of the things i feel.
sometimes i really , really hate myself
all i can say is..i dont kno y i cnt commit to a girl..i jus hav trust barriers which r way to high.
eugh.
Your watching me fall apart
at the seams
all I can see is black
but sometimes you make me see colour
thankyou
im still not comfortable with my sexuality.
but i pretend i am.
O WELL...
also... one more. for old time sake...
I feel that noone knows who I am, I feel that I am lost in my own self centeredness and the only people that I care about are the ones that see this in me. I feel that the world is not enough for the way that I think and feel, that nothing ever amounts to anything that I want it to, and no matter how I try, nobody hears the subtle cries of help that scream from my inner self. People only know a fraction of me, the same fraction being fractionalised and then cut up into tiny more fractions. I feel that I do not know myself, my family do not know me and that noone knows me, yet people still put on that same smile whenever they see me, say the same things and do the same things. You people bore me.