Deliverance From Hell
Well today begins my research into getting the hell out of dodge. I have never felt great love for the sweaty swamps of east Texas, in fact there is a deep seeded ire for the sweltering summers and mosquito filled "winters".
There really is nothing holding me here. Carl has a decent job here, but not a great job. I am no longer in school, and pretty much all of our childless friends scattered long ago before Lennon was even born. My family is here...but they would really prefer to be family in name alone, and photographs are inexpensive to send. Involvement is nonexistant, and help (not monetary mind you, more like could you watch the child so we can go do something as adults) is minimal. We do not have enough income for a regualr babysitter, nor do I know anyone who babysits. We are basically on our own here, and neither one of us are happy.
In California on the other hand, we have many family members who want to be active in our lives. Many family members who intead of resenting and seeing her as an inconvenience already love Lennon although only a few have met her. There are several people who would jump at the chance to watch her and give Carl and I some time together, or simply me some time to go to the gym or something to get back in shape. No one here wants to dirty thier hands with Lennon or change thier rather empty schedules to help out in any way.
I am very much done with this place, and most of the people here. I need to get out and away.
So today I begin to research cost of moving us and most of our things...we may end up selling many things to finance the move. Also, the cost of a rental home, and research into the job market for both Carl and I. So, probaly in about a year or more we will be leaving this godforsaken place.
There really is nothing holding me here. Carl has a decent job here, but not a great job. I am no longer in school, and pretty much all of our childless friends scattered long ago before Lennon was even born. My family is here...but they would really prefer to be family in name alone, and photographs are inexpensive to send. Involvement is nonexistant, and help (not monetary mind you, more like could you watch the child so we can go do something as adults) is minimal. We do not have enough income for a regualr babysitter, nor do I know anyone who babysits. We are basically on our own here, and neither one of us are happy.
In California on the other hand, we have many family members who want to be active in our lives. Many family members who intead of resenting and seeing her as an inconvenience already love Lennon although only a few have met her. There are several people who would jump at the chance to watch her and give Carl and I some time together, or simply me some time to go to the gym or something to get back in shape. No one here wants to dirty thier hands with Lennon or change thier rather empty schedules to help out in any way.
I am very much done with this place, and most of the people here. I need to get out and away.
So today I begin to research cost of moving us and most of our things...we may end up selling many things to finance the move. Also, the cost of a rental home, and research into the job market for both Carl and I. So, probaly in about a year or more we will be leaving this godforsaken place.