making it on my own

[gorthok]

this so bullshit. i can't believe i'm on that rising edge of chaos again. i can feel everything about to fall apart without a solid plan. this is ususlly where things fall to shit. but i've got the items listed on a 3x5 card and so long as i follow through on this. i should be able to manage everything all at once. i'm not going to let this happen. it's been going on for nigh well over a decade now. this needs to stop. or go. or whatever. i'm not a fucking teenager dreaming of the days where mommy and daddy will let me do shit. there's no need to transpose blame onto some mythical 'man' or assume guilt for things that aren't my fault like the christian religon taught me.

fuck all that shit, and every yesterday that ever happened under it's rule.