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what can i say about me, i am rough complex stubborn and difficult. hard to love aad just to say i love, everyone prying and trying for me to say it, and the only person who i want to say it to is the only person who can't or won't hear it. from her i learned to be open and vulnerable, and from that i learned for the first time to be afraid. and that fear has haunted me ever since. i love you, 10000000 time i do, and u hate me a million times more. your the last person i ever said i love u to, and i say it everyday under my breath but like prayers it falls on deaf ears. i gave u my heart and soul, now all that remains is flesh. empty and void of feelings like a California sunrise. in loneliness a man finds himself and in self must see insanity, desire becomes consuming as the two became one and the one become none.