Quasi update...
List up to ten (10) things you want to say to ten (10) different people. Do not state who these people are. Do not confirm or deny any 'comment speculation.' Tag five (5) people.
1. I had a crush on you for so long. I actually believe that you were the first person I liked in a gay way, and it hurt me to see you engage yourself in relationships that I wasn't the other half in.In a way, it always will, but take this as a good thing. You always know/knew what to say and when, and I've always loved you for it. It means you're an incredibly wonderful and beautiful person, and your presence in my life is a blessing. I always wonder, "What if..." with you, and while I hope you're happy for the rest of your life, it'll always nag at me.
2. You're like a soulmate that I've never actually shaken hands with. I always unload on you, and I don't really mean to a lot of times. You've been there through good and bad times, and I appreciate your words of advice, reflections on where you've been, and giving me hope for the future. You're a busy guy, but someday it'll pay off and I'll be calling you "Lowenstien" (from The Prince of Tides) soon enough. All I ask is that I get to ride the highway of fame with you, Dr. Phil!
3. Yes, I know you and see you every now and again, I never really have gotten to you on the inside. You're a beautiful person, and not just on the outside like one person in particular makes you feel. You are an incredibly lonely person, and you've built a wall around you to where people love you, but pain is the price you pay for them not knowing you truly either. Open up, shake off the demons of your past, and realize what truly makes you happy instead of what you just know to be there for convience.
4. You remind me of the Elton John song, "Rocket Man". You're lost, and slowly you're finding your way home. You tell me I need to be true to myself, but it is you dear friend, who needs to be. You set me up in high school (no I have not forgotten) and I used to hate you so much because that's all I was treated like in those days. But, no more. Now the roles are reversed, and you're experiencing some major growing pains in your life, and while I consider it a karma of sorts, I appreciate you for going down the same road I did in high school, and that you're doing now. It's tough, but stay strong, and I'll be here for you all the way.
5. I am insanely attracted to you, haha. In case you didn't know, the sexual innuendos that we throw at one another are really enjoyable, haha. You seem to always be running from that scary thing in your life, and I don't know well enough to know what that is. I like you a lot, and that in and of itself says a lot. You're many states away, but there's a connection somewhere that keeps us smiling. Keep your chin up through this tough time in your life, and I'm here for you buddy.
6. You're a very selfish, arrogant, and clueless person who still and never will have any sense of purpose or direction in life. Your disposition is congenial, but that's about the most redeemable thing about you. You're a user, a fake, and a sad case. You burn bridges wherever you go, and while you think people like you, it's reallty just pity in their eyes. It's going to crash in on you very soon, and I am just glad I wasn't around long enough to be obligated to clean up the mess. Just be careful, and don't hurt anyone or yourself.
7. I love you, across an ocean. You are a really cool guy, and it's cool to have an old-fashioned pen pal. You deserve a lot of happiness in your life, and I hope you find it.
8. My best memories from high school are with you. We giggled, we cried, and we made it. I don't think I've ever met anyone else who's smile can light up a room like yours. And though my hair is slowly receding to the back of my head, the memories in that class don't fade. You can bring someone out of the darkest doldrums with your words, and just know greatness awaits you.
9. It's been a long time, but regardless of what you think, I think of you with fondness. When we met, I was in a very dark place, and though we've gone in different directions, you're like a big gay brother to me. I see what you are doing in the cultural wasteland to which we both hail from, and smile because you are indeed making a difference. I know that a loveable man awaits you somewhere, and you're going to make someone very happy someday. I better be at the damn wedding though, or what I just said meant nothing haha. J/k
10. You seem like a cool person, but I always get a little sad and a little peeved because it always seemed like you never gave me a chance for a negligible reason. You need to get past the fears in your life, or the perceived fears if you are truly to meet people that can make a difference in your life. Something seems to always come up between you and me, but if you opened up, you might just be able to truly experience happiness. You're still hot though ;)
I tag
brokenone386,
agriking,
inproduction23,
pjas,
acidentphlosoph
Real update will follow tomorrow at some point....but yes, I am alive...
1. I had a crush on you for so long. I actually believe that you were the first person I liked in a gay way, and it hurt me to see you engage yourself in relationships that I wasn't the other half in.In a way, it always will, but take this as a good thing. You always know/knew what to say and when, and I've always loved you for it. It means you're an incredibly wonderful and beautiful person, and your presence in my life is a blessing. I always wonder, "What if..." with you, and while I hope you're happy for the rest of your life, it'll always nag at me.
2. You're like a soulmate that I've never actually shaken hands with. I always unload on you, and I don't really mean to a lot of times. You've been there through good and bad times, and I appreciate your words of advice, reflections on where you've been, and giving me hope for the future. You're a busy guy, but someday it'll pay off and I'll be calling you "Lowenstien" (from The Prince of Tides) soon enough. All I ask is that I get to ride the highway of fame with you, Dr. Phil!
3. Yes, I know you and see you every now and again, I never really have gotten to you on the inside. You're a beautiful person, and not just on the outside like one person in particular makes you feel. You are an incredibly lonely person, and you've built a wall around you to where people love you, but pain is the price you pay for them not knowing you truly either. Open up, shake off the demons of your past, and realize what truly makes you happy instead of what you just know to be there for convience.
4. You remind me of the Elton John song, "Rocket Man". You're lost, and slowly you're finding your way home. You tell me I need to be true to myself, but it is you dear friend, who needs to be. You set me up in high school (no I have not forgotten) and I used to hate you so much because that's all I was treated like in those days. But, no more. Now the roles are reversed, and you're experiencing some major growing pains in your life, and while I consider it a karma of sorts, I appreciate you for going down the same road I did in high school, and that you're doing now. It's tough, but stay strong, and I'll be here for you all the way.
5. I am insanely attracted to you, haha. In case you didn't know, the sexual innuendos that we throw at one another are really enjoyable, haha. You seem to always be running from that scary thing in your life, and I don't know well enough to know what that is. I like you a lot, and that in and of itself says a lot. You're many states away, but there's a connection somewhere that keeps us smiling. Keep your chin up through this tough time in your life, and I'm here for you buddy.
6. You're a very selfish, arrogant, and clueless person who still and never will have any sense of purpose or direction in life. Your disposition is congenial, but that's about the most redeemable thing about you. You're a user, a fake, and a sad case. You burn bridges wherever you go, and while you think people like you, it's reallty just pity in their eyes. It's going to crash in on you very soon, and I am just glad I wasn't around long enough to be obligated to clean up the mess. Just be careful, and don't hurt anyone or yourself.
7. I love you, across an ocean. You are a really cool guy, and it's cool to have an old-fashioned pen pal. You deserve a lot of happiness in your life, and I hope you find it.
8. My best memories from high school are with you. We giggled, we cried, and we made it. I don't think I've ever met anyone else who's smile can light up a room like yours. And though my hair is slowly receding to the back of my head, the memories in that class don't fade. You can bring someone out of the darkest doldrums with your words, and just know greatness awaits you.
9. It's been a long time, but regardless of what you think, I think of you with fondness. When we met, I was in a very dark place, and though we've gone in different directions, you're like a big gay brother to me. I see what you are doing in the cultural wasteland to which we both hail from, and smile because you are indeed making a difference. I know that a loveable man awaits you somewhere, and you're going to make someone very happy someday. I better be at the damn wedding though, or what I just said meant nothing haha. J/k
10. You seem like a cool person, but I always get a little sad and a little peeved because it always seemed like you never gave me a chance for a negligible reason. You need to get past the fears in your life, or the perceived fears if you are truly to meet people that can make a difference in your life. Something seems to always come up between you and me, but if you opened up, you might just be able to truly experience happiness. You're still hot though ;)
I tag
brokenone386,
agriking,
inproduction23,
pjas,
acidentphlosoph
Real update will follow tomorrow at some point....but yes, I am alive...