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My sister has kind of cooled her jets. We've had a brief email exchange and she took the time to go into depth about why she doesn't feel like it fits her process to attend this weekend's ceremony. I responded by letting her know that I didn't feel any judgment about her choice to go or not. She's considering doing her own ceremony and she's invited me to be as involved in that as I want to be. I don't know if I'll be involved in that one, but I know my decision on that really isn't about her.
So generally speaking, I'm feeling at peace with where things are with us.
I'm a little nervous about the ceremony - I'm pretty confident that I'm not as happy to see some of those people as they are to see me. My dad's 'best friend' of 40 or so years always gave me the heebie-jeebies. I have one positive memory of him teaching me how to play backgammon (and overtly proclaiming his enthusiasm for how quickly I picked it up), but that's it. The rest of the time he just didn't seem like someone who had a clear sense of personal boundaries. So, yeah... not looking forward to seeing him.
And I have a crap-ton of work to do throughout the weekend, so I'm feeling a bit anxious about the logistics. I'm glad I got a broadband card from work so I can be online anywhere, but I'm still nervous that I won't get everything done (and I've set the expectation that I can get everything done). But the busy has been good. I can't imagine how stressed I would be if I didn't have a job (and had all day, every day to get neurotic about the memorial).
And I also have the pleasant distraction of a couple different guys that I've been talking to on OKC, so that's been nice.
So generally speaking, I'm feeling at peace with where things are with us.
I'm a little nervous about the ceremony - I'm pretty confident that I'm not as happy to see some of those people as they are to see me. My dad's 'best friend' of 40 or so years always gave me the heebie-jeebies. I have one positive memory of him teaching me how to play backgammon (and overtly proclaiming his enthusiasm for how quickly I picked it up), but that's it. The rest of the time he just didn't seem like someone who had a clear sense of personal boundaries. So, yeah... not looking forward to seeing him.
And I have a crap-ton of work to do throughout the weekend, so I'm feeling a bit anxious about the logistics. I'm glad I got a broadband card from work so I can be online anywhere, but I'm still nervous that I won't get everything done (and I've set the expectation that I can get everything done). But the busy has been good. I can't imagine how stressed I would be if I didn't have a job (and had all day, every day to get neurotic about the memorial).
And I also have the pleasant distraction of a couple different guys that I've been talking to on OKC, so that's been nice.