I just figured out what I'm supposed to do with my life.
I was walking down the street towards the cafe to grab something for lunch, when an idea that's been nagging at me for years popped into my head again. My heart actually twinged as I thought about it. And then I knew... this is what I want to do. I don't want it to be just an idea... I want to make it happen.
I think I can too. It's not a new job or anything. I'll keep my job and do this on the side. Just a hobby. A hobby that will occupy my time, creativity, and be community service as well. I always found excuses why NOT to do it in the past. But I have been struggling for a long time, trying desperately to know my purpose on earth. And when my heart twinged just a moment ago, I thought, "Thank god I'm walking into a hospital, because if I drop dead this very moment, someone can shock me back to life so I can move on with my purpose." Okay, so that's melodramatic, but it really did hurt when I had my revelation. Like as the thought entered my head, my heart beat funny or stopped for a split second. That's why I'm so positive that it's the right thing to do. Like it's a sign or something. Like God or some higher being was pinching me, saying, "WAKE UP! I've been telling you for years to do this and you got distracted."
Now, I just have to be brave enough to do it. It's not going to be too hard, I think, but time-consuming, and will require a bit of extra money. Which I don't have. Not a lot to start off with, just some. Maybe I can get some wealthy family members to donate to my idea...
I don't want to say what it is yet because I'm not finished working out the details. Also, I don't want to start my project, end up abandoning it, and then feel like an idiot.
I just feel happy that I know what it is I want to do. And I'm going to do it.
I think I can too. It's not a new job or anything. I'll keep my job and do this on the side. Just a hobby. A hobby that will occupy my time, creativity, and be community service as well. I always found excuses why NOT to do it in the past. But I have been struggling for a long time, trying desperately to know my purpose on earth. And when my heart twinged just a moment ago, I thought, "Thank god I'm walking into a hospital, because if I drop dead this very moment, someone can shock me back to life so I can move on with my purpose." Okay, so that's melodramatic, but it really did hurt when I had my revelation. Like as the thought entered my head, my heart beat funny or stopped for a split second. That's why I'm so positive that it's the right thing to do. Like it's a sign or something. Like God or some higher being was pinching me, saying, "WAKE UP! I've been telling you for years to do this and you got distracted."
Now, I just have to be brave enough to do it. It's not going to be too hard, I think, but time-consuming, and will require a bit of extra money. Which I don't have. Not a lot to start off with, just some. Maybe I can get some wealthy family members to donate to my idea...
I don't want to say what it is yet because I'm not finished working out the details. Also, I don't want to start my project, end up abandoning it, and then feel like an idiot.
I just feel happy that I know what it is I want to do. And I'm going to do it.