Have you ever been mellow?
Is it possible to feel like the best years of your life are gone at 33 years of age? Are there any real moments in life that should be or can be considered the best when they all pretty much suck and or excite?
Its always something with me it seems. I mean I wanted to be a builder like my father when I was first leaving high school, but my body and my health will not allow it. So then I think about being a DJ and find the the schooling is to expensive. Later, I decide
on becoming a graphic artist only to find out that I am colorblind a year and a half through the program. Now I WILL be a professional photographer, critics be damned, but I still Carry the colorblind monkey on my back. Little bastard that he is. From time to
time he interrupts me and whispers in my ear his words of doubt and distrust in my ability. I ignore him as much as humanly possible but still he continues to whisper away all my confidence and tear apart my dreams. I mean who cares if the Heinz catsup
bottle is two number shades off from true Heinz red number 4, its what's inside that matters right? That works in more ways than one I think and besides, hot-dogs are just not the same without the stuff.
I think If I were to let out all that is in I would be brilliantly empty instead of numb and brimming.