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it has been about 2 years now since i OD'd on stuff...gets me thinking as to why i would've even attempted.
that time was very chaotic and hectic, mostly due to behaviorism (THE BOX). I'd die in isolation, or i would change greatly...i found that out.
the main reason was because i just wanted to escape, i wanted a form of security/extradimensional pocket to go for a moment of time. the second factor was i was in an ugly mood and was talking to my good friend Jacqui and somehow i became what i remember actually angry or at least slightlly aggrivated at and so in spite i also did it. Now i'm not saying it's been all hunky-dorey since then. We all know life is not without its sense of irony or hypotheticals. It was the first and only time i cheated. before then i was loyal almost to the hilt, my only cause to spread happiness and good cheer within the boundaries of flesh, i'm a compassionate guy so most understood that and let me freedom. i was trapped inside a shell encased in walls of steel, the terror became real. I learned much from The Box. It was after that i knew what it was like to be truely apart from all. After being psuedo-workaholic i began being UBER libra and balancing all so both sides are happy....the worker and the lover. need to do crazy time management.
eyes are bad at work...i found something out the other day.......yeah, only the righteous few may learn of that which is hidden.
i know who i am and what i am. The ancients have guided my way, for i refuse to die for nothing, my cause has not yet been complete.
Who:Matthew Wallace Hand
What:an Empathetic person with a cause being discovered
that time was very chaotic and hectic, mostly due to behaviorism (THE BOX). I'd die in isolation, or i would change greatly...i found that out.
the main reason was because i just wanted to escape, i wanted a form of security/extradimensional pocket to go for a moment of time. the second factor was i was in an ugly mood and was talking to my good friend Jacqui and somehow i became what i remember actually angry or at least slightlly aggrivated at and so in spite i also did it. Now i'm not saying it's been all hunky-dorey since then. We all know life is not without its sense of irony or hypotheticals. It was the first and only time i cheated. before then i was loyal almost to the hilt, my only cause to spread happiness and good cheer within the boundaries of flesh, i'm a compassionate guy so most understood that and let me freedom. i was trapped inside a shell encased in walls of steel, the terror became real. I learned much from The Box. It was after that i knew what it was like to be truely apart from all. After being psuedo-workaholic i began being UBER libra and balancing all so both sides are happy....the worker and the lover. need to do crazy time management.
eyes are bad at work...i found something out the other day.......yeah, only the righteous few may learn of that which is hidden.
i know who i am and what i am. The ancients have guided my way, for i refuse to die for nothing, my cause has not yet been complete.
Who:Matthew Wallace Hand
What:an Empathetic person with a cause being discovered