If worrying doesn't help, why is it so easy to do?
It's been such a long week. Good for the most part, just long. I've definitely kept busy, what with the RE-effin-DICULUS clubs page and all. We're so close chernique! Wow, I'll be soo glad when that's all over. I was supposed to hang out with Chad tonight, but there's just one minor mis-hap keeping us from that. That mis-hap has me a little bummed out and pretty scared, but I hope everything will be ok. I'll know more details soon I suppose. I am quite excited otherwise, though. I'm excited about Sean's birthday this weekend, and my birthday in a couple weeks! I cannot believe I'm going to be 18 already, I still remember being 5. An interesting childhood it was, too. I definitely learned a lot from it. So my family has to be moved out of our house. My dad was talking about having big boxes in his truck and us starting to pack, and it really started to hit me. We're moving. As much as I hate it here sometimes, this is the first place that i actually made roots. I've spent the majority of my life here, in this house. And I hate this house for the most part. it's just the little things, the memories I'm going to miss. Like those fun few parentless Saturday nights this past summer and in the past few months...those were a blast. The biggest deal though, is that my family could be moving as far away as Westland or possibly to Lapeer, and both are eons away from the college I'll be attending, or the high school i will be attenging until June. I have a couple of options, like moving in with my aunt, but she's also moving, i just dont know when, or moving in with me mom, which i'm pretty sure would be like re-living my childhood all over again. that's just not something i'm willing to do, with one over protective, worried parent and one seemingly passive yet gets pissed about what you do behind your back step parent, and 2 babies. Not something that gets me terribly excited, and it's definitely not my idea of "moving out". Autumn and i had talked pretty seriously about getting an apartment before, but i dont know how well that would work out now. Not that we don't want to, but I know she has some other plans, and I worry about things like money and insurance if i dont live with a parent. Looking at college right now, it just hardly seems feasable. With living arrangements so up in the air, and the fact that i make enough money, i just can't save any of it because i always end up having to spend it on things that i need. I still need to gather money for my senior pictures, senior ad, cap, gown, announcements, etc, and dont even get me started about spring break and college. i dont know where all this money is going to come from. god knows my dad doesnt have it, which is why we're moving out of this house to begin with. It will be interesting to see where i go from here.