two weeks
It's been two weeks. I've been with Derek for two weeks. That's a big deal for me.
I really really think I really like this kid.
I've realized that I'm scared of falling for him.
I'm trying to protect my heart, because I don't want to get hurt, I mean I might never get hurt with him. But I'm terrified.
I told a friend that I was scared I would try and break up with him. See, I don't want to be like my sister and date a guy for a couple years and then break up it all go to waste. But I just don't know what to think.
I'm scared.
I think I like him, but I keep doing these things that require me to protect my heart.
Like, we've pretty much seen each other everyday for the past two weeks. So last night when he dropped me off at my car we made a deal that we wouldn't talk to each other today at all.
So that's what we did. Because I told him that I don't want to get sick of him. Pretty much, I know that I'm going to get annoyed of seeing him all the time, so we do this so that doesn't happen.
Maybe I'm controlling this relationship. I don't know.
But to sum it up. I'm scared of falling for him. Cuz I know I will.
I finally met his family last night. They are so cute! His mom's name is Sandy, Dad is Joe and his older sister is Erica. They are so adorable. I talked to them for a while, then they all went to bed and Derek and I stayed up and watched tv and then we watched American History X. I've never seen that movie before, and it was really good. Pretty much I love Edward Norton, no joke! haha.
So yeah, I think this is going to last a while. I hope it does. I like him. I like him a lot.
;-)
I really really think I really like this kid.
I've realized that I'm scared of falling for him.
I'm trying to protect my heart, because I don't want to get hurt, I mean I might never get hurt with him. But I'm terrified.
I told a friend that I was scared I would try and break up with him. See, I don't want to be like my sister and date a guy for a couple years and then break up it all go to waste. But I just don't know what to think.
I'm scared.
I think I like him, but I keep doing these things that require me to protect my heart.
Like, we've pretty much seen each other everyday for the past two weeks. So last night when he dropped me off at my car we made a deal that we wouldn't talk to each other today at all.
So that's what we did. Because I told him that I don't want to get sick of him. Pretty much, I know that I'm going to get annoyed of seeing him all the time, so we do this so that doesn't happen.
Maybe I'm controlling this relationship. I don't know.
But to sum it up. I'm scared of falling for him. Cuz I know I will.
I finally met his family last night. They are so cute! His mom's name is Sandy, Dad is Joe and his older sister is Erica. They are so adorable. I talked to them for a while, then they all went to bed and Derek and I stayed up and watched tv and then we watched American History X. I've never seen that movie before, and it was really good. Pretty much I love Edward Norton, no joke! haha.
So yeah, I think this is going to last a while. I hope it does. I like him. I like him a lot.
;-)