私、どうかしている。
There must be something wrong with me.

Again, I dreamt of you.

It seems like no matter how much time passes, I can't forget you. I can't let you go.

And it's crazy because I made that huge decision to let you go those 6 years ago. At that time, I felt so strongly it was the right thing I had to do for myself to get out of a toxic ( Read more... )

I dreamt about you again ( Read more... )

I dreamt a dream of playing Fun Run with you again, just like in old times ( Read more... )

seriously i don't even have the balls to try to salvage this friendship ugh

WHY AM I SO SCARED

WHAT AM I AFRAID OF

I think it's only natural to lose people. We lose people all the time. It's all part and parcel of this wonderful journey we embark on, called life. Every day, one person we used to be so close to drifts a little bit more just because we didn't keep in contact. And with the accumulation of days, after awhile, everything that seemed to be there ( Read more... )

"What you're feeling is jealousy. And trust me, that feeling sucks. You just have to suck it up and with time you'll grow so accustomed to it then you won't care anymore."

Funny how the same advice I've been giving people all this time is finally coming back to me. It's my turn to finally feel it. And all the things you put me through / I'm ( Read more... )

Who am I to be wanting you back when it's always me who's been pushing you away? Who am I to want you back now when I miss you for selfish reasons?

You don't deserve the kind of shit I give you. Go to her instead.

But I'm a horrible friend to you both. I'm too selfish. I'm the worst friend anyone could have.