Moving forward
Took a trip down memory lane to the most torturous two years of my life -- JC LOL.
Ok so it all started because I've recently been thinking about x a lot; seen him in my dreams multiple times and so finally met up with him just 3 days ago (for the first time in 3.5 years apparently!). No idea what I'm feeling for him but it's weird and I'm confused and do I like him?
Anyway.
Wanted to see if I posted much about him back then, but I was instead met with waves of insecurity and loads of kpop junk in my archives HAHAHA. It's insane how my life seemed to revolve only around kpop, A levels and occassionally friends back then. :'D I found nothing wrt what I set out to find, but hey I realised I've grown a lot in these past 8-9 years.
I wish I could tell my 2011/2012 self that things would work out eventually and that HEY YOU ARE A SMART KID, YOU WILL MAKE THINGS WORK. Those days were filled with childish pleasures and my life was literally a (((whirlwind))) of emotions all the time lol I posted here sporadically, up to 4 times a day?!?! What did I even have to say that was worth posting multiple times in a day?? But on hindsight I'm glad I did, those posts really helped me look back at 17-18 year old me with tender fondness.
These days, while I wait out my posting to Japan, having finished my last day of work 9 days ago at the tuition centre I worked with for almost 3 years, I've really had time to enjoy life. I often think about how a close friend pointed out how I'm slowly reaching my dream.
Studied accounting (which I've always hated) and survived uni > Got my first job (that I hated) as an auditor
> Left the audit industry to pursue teaching (in a tuition centre tho, not a school)
> (Now) Moving to Japan to teach English (everything I've always wanted)
It's weird how true it is that things eventually work out. Those days when I couldn't even envision a life past A level exams, seeing only nightmares and black holes. Thankful for the trials in my life and really, all the experiences, friends and teachers I've met. So many people and experiences have moulded me into who I am today. Still a little bit unsure of myself at times, but mostly happy with myself, confident of my abilities and have a mental fortitude unimagineable 10 years ago.
(でも結局やっぱり人間としてただ愛されたいんです。この辺はまだまだです。泣）
Ok so it all started because I've recently been thinking about x a lot; seen him in my dreams multiple times and so finally met up with him just 3 days ago (for the first time in 3.5 years apparently!). No idea what I'm feeling for him but it's weird and I'm confused and do I like him?
Anyway.
Wanted to see if I posted much about him back then, but I was instead met with waves of insecurity and loads of kpop junk in my archives HAHAHA. It's insane how my life seemed to revolve only around kpop, A levels and occassionally friends back then. :'D I found nothing wrt what I set out to find, but hey I realised I've grown a lot in these past 8-9 years.
I wish I could tell my 2011/2012 self that things would work out eventually and that HEY YOU ARE A SMART KID, YOU WILL MAKE THINGS WORK. Those days were filled with childish pleasures and my life was literally a (((whirlwind))) of emotions all the time lol I posted here sporadically, up to 4 times a day?!?! What did I even have to say that was worth posting multiple times in a day?? But on hindsight I'm glad I did, those posts really helped me look back at 17-18 year old me with tender fondness.
These days, while I wait out my posting to Japan, having finished my last day of work 9 days ago at the tuition centre I worked with for almost 3 years, I've really had time to enjoy life. I often think about how a close friend pointed out how I'm slowly reaching my dream.
Studied accounting (which I've always hated) and survived uni > Got my first job (that I hated) as an auditor
> Left the audit industry to pursue teaching (in a tuition centre tho, not a school)
> (Now) Moving to Japan to teach English (everything I've always wanted)
It's weird how true it is that things eventually work out. Those days when I couldn't even envision a life past A level exams, seeing only nightmares and black holes. Thankful for the trials in my life and really, all the experiences, friends and teachers I've met. So many people and experiences have moulded me into who I am today. Still a little bit unsure of myself at times, but mostly happy with myself, confident of my abilities and have a mental fortitude unimagineable 10 years ago.
(でも結局やっぱり人間としてただ愛されたいんです。この辺はまだまだです。泣）