i needed someone just like you
wow, it's been a while since i've updated this thing.
my party was really fun, i had a great time and as far as i know, everyone else did too. we had a huge cake fight & nick and seth almost threw me in the water. it was pretty cold after it got dark, and everyone was freezing, but i still had a blast.
madison's party is today & she's having hers at avila beach too, but it's from 6:30-10:30PM. it's going to FREEZE, i swear. idk why she's having it so late.. and it might rain today too. ahh! lol. this should definitely be interesting.
i got an ipod for my birthday! i'm super excited. it's a green mini. i accidentally deleted all the songs i had on it though (only like 80, but still) so now i have to re-load everything. i'm a dumbass, i know.
i've been trying to avoid all the drama going on lately, and it's worked for a while. until i opened up my mouth to one person about something i had no business talking about. i know it was wrong, and i aplogized. everyone makes mistakes, but seriously? if you ASK me to lie to someone to cover up the truth, which you don't want someone to know (although they already do), it doesn't make any sense. this person is probably the most untruthful, immature person i have ever met in my life. i don't regret being friends with this person, but the things they do are absurd. i've had a few problems with them in the past, and i admit, most of it has been my fault. i haven't been the best of a friend as i should to this person, but neither have they to others. they are extremely undeserving. and now they have threatened to go around and spead shit about me.. the funny part? there's nothing to talk shit about. maybe one or two totally insignificant and things that only apply to that one person. not everyone else. it truly amazes me how pathetic this person is upon going about things.
ugh.. and guys. i hate being so confused and frustrated. i wake up every morning not knowing how the day will turn out. if he'll pay attention to me, or not at all. it's these little guessing games that seriously drive me crazy, but i guess deep down, i kind of love it. it's so complicated. at the same time i still don't know how he feels about her, or me. neither do some of his friends who should know him best. it's pretty confusing, but i'm not going to give up.
and that's the end of my story.
my party was really fun, i had a great time and as far as i know, everyone else did too. we had a huge cake fight & nick and seth almost threw me in the water. it was pretty cold after it got dark, and everyone was freezing, but i still had a blast.
madison's party is today & she's having hers at avila beach too, but it's from 6:30-10:30PM. it's going to FREEZE, i swear. idk why she's having it so late.. and it might rain today too. ahh! lol. this should definitely be interesting.
i got an ipod for my birthday! i'm super excited. it's a green mini. i accidentally deleted all the songs i had on it though (only like 80, but still) so now i have to re-load everything. i'm a dumbass, i know.
i've been trying to avoid all the drama going on lately, and it's worked for a while. until i opened up my mouth to one person about something i had no business talking about. i know it was wrong, and i aplogized. everyone makes mistakes, but seriously? if you ASK me to lie to someone to cover up the truth, which you don't want someone to know (although they already do), it doesn't make any sense. this person is probably the most untruthful, immature person i have ever met in my life. i don't regret being friends with this person, but the things they do are absurd. i've had a few problems with them in the past, and i admit, most of it has been my fault. i haven't been the best of a friend as i should to this person, but neither have they to others. they are extremely undeserving. and now they have threatened to go around and spead shit about me.. the funny part? there's nothing to talk shit about. maybe one or two totally insignificant and things that only apply to that one person. not everyone else. it truly amazes me how pathetic this person is upon going about things.
ugh.. and guys. i hate being so confused and frustrated. i wake up every morning not knowing how the day will turn out. if he'll pay attention to me, or not at all. it's these little guessing games that seriously drive me crazy, but i guess deep down, i kind of love it. it's so complicated. at the same time i still don't know how he feels about her, or me. neither do some of his friends who should know him best. it's pretty confusing, but i'm not going to give up.
and that's the end of my story.