THE SUPPER UBBER DIET PLAN - MY LIFE IN AROUND 2000 WORDS
Okay, here it is.
I'm officially beginning a new diet and my goal : to lose 35 lbs in 3 months (lol, sounds like the movie How to lose your guys in 10 days XD)
So, if people are interested and wants to share their own stories or good meal (that I'd like to know what you think are good meals (though with no cheese please, hate that)), you're more than welcome to comment on this ^^
So yeah, here are the things I know about myself:
Since I was 12 (now I'm 20 going 21 in july), I began dieting. In fact, at that time, I was already 60 lbs over what I should have weight.... (or I think. At that time, I used to weight 140 lbs). And I began to train myself daily so in the summer, I actually lost 25 lbs.
When I began school, I regained that weight in no time since when I came back from school I had no real time to excercise myself because of homework and simply because I always felt too tired. Also, the dinner my nounou gave us wasn't anywhere near...healty either. THOUGH, I can acknowledge it was my fault that I didn't try to stop my weight gain.
After that, I just stayed at 140-160 lbs over the two years after. The thing is, since I'm and I always was doing sport, my cardio is kinda really good. I used to play in two teams of ringuette during the winter (and believe me, you sweat so damn much and I take a lot of endurance and cardio to put up with that) and when ringuette finished, I always started soccer during the summer (so it was kinda like a circle). My doctor (which was a really mean guy who always had me and my youngest sister crying over the fact we were too big and my other little sister crying because she wasn't weighting enough (she's underweight even though she eats way much more bad food than anyone else in the house. It's sooo damn frustrating but it runs in the family of my dad (they are all so skinny and they eat so much junk food but STAY HEALTHY) and to eat her vegetables and fruits (she used to eat neither. Put them in napkins, under the table, giving them to the dog...).
Though, it was during that summer that everything went downhill completely for me.
I was kinda depressed because of a guy I was in love with and things in my family was (though you can also say *is*) never an easy thing to deal with. So I saw friends and everything but mostly, I stayed home and read fanfiction over fanfiction. Let's say I spent the whole summer isolating myself with the computer, eating my heart content and well, *IT* happened.
I took 60 lbs in 2 months.
I never went on the scale until school began and when I saw none of my school uniform fited me anymore, I went even more depressed. My health wasn't in danger (I went to see my doctor) but my cardio wasn't good and I had fat everywhere (none of the muscles I currently have today). Let's say it was the worst I've ever been (I must have weighted 220 lbs at the time). I was actually my father that was really concerned about my health and even offered me 5,00$ for each lbs I would lost. I managed for less than a week than stopped because I had no motivation.
Until one day, during april (I do remember Easter was on it's way), I kinda freaked out. I was like a slap in the face and I remember I was doing my homework at the time. For some reason, my alarm bell went on suddenly and I realised how serious the situation was and how much I wanted to change it. So I began, what I would say, the most intense training I've ever done in my life. THOUGH, not at the beginning of it. During may to june (when I was still at school), I managed to lose around 10-15 lbs by eating more healthier, no more juice but water and trained myself with weights for arms and maybe 20 minutes of stationnary bicycle by day. School finished and then the '*real* thing began:
Each day, I would do 6 hours of stationnary bicycle. Every damn day. Though I remember that I didn't change my alimentation a lot at that time.
The result: from the beginning of the training until school began again, I lost 50 lbs (no kidding here) AND I also gained a lot of muscles in my legs.
THOUGH, the most tragic thing of this (and I would suggest everyone to understand this because it happened to me and they are NOT KIDDING when they tell you every diet should be slow and not fast), I regained 30 lbs of it over the year simply because I seriously didn't have the time to do 6 hours anymore and just did maybe 1 hour per week.
I remained around 195 lbs until two years ago. I gained weight because of stress and because again of a broken heart. I remember trying some sort of protein diet that was, as they said, SUPER GOOD. Know what? It really, really ISN'T. We had to buy the food we would have to eat and there was vegetables we couldn't eat and no fruits and barely any milk (everything else, we had to bought from them). What my mother and I didn't realise until we stopped was that we were eating barely 600 calories by day and I also went to the gym at the same time. The result? I was so damn spent every day that I had a lot of difficulty to listen in class and no energy for anything else after that.
Also, The stress thing is really fatal for me. I'm actually doing some panic crisis (I don't know if any of you know about this but it feels like you can't breath, your heart and your lugs hurt so BADLY and you actually feel like dying. Clickhere for more informations) and be aware that this isn't something you can easily overcome.
Anyway, like I say, two years ago I gained weight and went to the highest I've ever been : 239 lbs. Seriously, the number I just wrote makes me want to puke. And you know what remains incredible about that? The fact that even then, my cardio was still considered pretty good by the doctor and that I had a bit more weight than before in my legs but barely any fat at all. No cholesterol either.
So, I started a new diet last summer and went from that weight to 206 lbs. The main point from this diet, because I obvioulsly forgot to tell this but after the 50 lbs I lost when I was 16, I asked at 17 my parents to buy me an elliptique. And from that day on, everyday, I do at least 1 hour of it and nowadays, it mostly because I don't feel comfortable if I don't do that at least everyday. It's important and it feels good and the stress you have from your day can be lifted, if not just a little, when you put on some music or listen to tv while doing this. I ♥ my elliptique so much! Anyway, two importants things happened this year:
First, I started university and went to live there so in my new residence, there was obviously no place to put that. I subscribed myself to the gym but basically went 1 day per week for 2 hours I would say... but no more than that. I worked at the same time (like 20 hours a week) + I had my university class and of course I had to study for the exams. That brought stress and stress isn't good for weight loss (at least in my case. Made me want to eat more and more)
Second, and here I'm not sure everyone will believe me. I'm not asking you to believe me, hell I thought I had schizophrenia at the beginning but it isn't that. I won't say or explain all the experience I went through and I'm a very realistic person who needs proof and I had them more than enough, but anyway, the other thing that brought me stress this year was this: I'm a medium. Powerful one at that too. I don't know my limit yet but I can feel people emotions, I can see the dead people sometimes (not everyday, I don't choose to see this), I can do the tarot quite well enough (and it's scary how many things I see in the card happen to everyone I did the tarot on). It's basically that and I won't share the experiences I went through here because there are so many and I know many people here will probably be sceptic of me after reading that and I seriously don't need that. Let's just say, I never asked for this and if I could, I would give away this 'gift' I have gladly. Unfortunately, it doesn't work like that. ANYWAY, this brought me a lot of stress over the year. So the result?
Here I am, basically 1 week and a half I finished university and I am home, starting a new diet again. This morning, I weighted exactly 225 lbs. So gained 19 lbs over the year. Though I subscribed myself to a gym near my house and I should receive call from two people this week to know if I managed to have a job (from either of these two, both jobs seems pretty interesting!).
So why am I writing all this and, for those who decided to read through this whole entry I wrote, why I am bothering you with this? Only to say this:
I'm officially and for the first time, annoncing to so many people that (and so freely at that too), my real weight and a real objectif for this summer. I want to lose 35 lbs until I go back to school again (8 september 2011) and writing all this and making people know about this make this so much real.
I won't scale myself each day, I won't let it (the weight loss) take control of my life but I'll be serious from now on. I'll update maybe two times weekly about this and if you have any questions or anything you want to ask or say about this, feel free to do so!
Here is what my body looks like:
And here is what my face looks like:
For those who have finished university already, I hope they are having a great. For those who are still at school and exams are coming, I'll say that most korean in the drama I watch say: 'FIGHTING!'