Blue Jeans
Last night I won $50 for having the scariest costume at the Coyote Grill, my favorite bar. I was pretty proud! This continues what will hopefully be an annual tradition of a Horseman winning money for their costume at the 'Yote.
I just...I dunno. I am sad. There's some very tough stuff going on in my personal life right now, and it's taking a major toll on everything (and everyone) else around me. It's so frustrating when it seems like you've got everything figured out, and then it's taken back away from you...heart-wrenching. I finally feel like my life is taking a turn for the better, is developing direction...and then MISS! Looks like I was getting overexcited about something that wasn't going to happen after all.
I'm not going to put too much pressure on myself to make these entries long or else I won't ever actually do them...I've felt like in the past I've done such huge entries that I've been intimidated to write shorter ones because they would seem inferior by comparison.
I have formed a ragtag bunch of players for a intramural volleyball team...and our first game is tomorrow. I'm kinda upset at myself for not having had the time to set up practices earlier - we're going into this game with NO practice at all, which does not bode well for our success. We will try though, and hopefully it will be fun.
I have a confession to make: Lately I've been seen smoking far more often than I'm comfortable with. In theory I don't want to be smoking at all...and I'm really not helping my cause by allowing myself to have 2 or 3 cigarettes in a single night just because they're presented to me. MISS! How did this happen? Much like my drinking, it seems like something that started off innocently enough and now is becoming something of a regular habit. I should say that I at least don't feel like I have any compulsion to smoke - it just happens when I'm with friends and it's available to me. Perhaps I'm more insecure about myself than I thought, and I'm afraid to not fit in the group? I dunno. All I DO know is...I better knock it off before I become a regular smoker. It's funny...I swore in life that would NEVER smoke no matter what, and here I am. MISS!
I think I'm gonna call it there, and hopefully as more things come to me I'll have material for more small posts. Seems like few people are updating anymore anyways...
I just...I dunno. I am sad. There's some very tough stuff going on in my personal life right now, and it's taking a major toll on everything (and everyone) else around me. It's so frustrating when it seems like you've got everything figured out, and then it's taken back away from you...heart-wrenching. I finally feel like my life is taking a turn for the better, is developing direction...and then MISS! Looks like I was getting overexcited about something that wasn't going to happen after all.
I'm not going to put too much pressure on myself to make these entries long or else I won't ever actually do them...I've felt like in the past I've done such huge entries that I've been intimidated to write shorter ones because they would seem inferior by comparison.
I have formed a ragtag bunch of players for a intramural volleyball team...and our first game is tomorrow. I'm kinda upset at myself for not having had the time to set up practices earlier - we're going into this game with NO practice at all, which does not bode well for our success. We will try though, and hopefully it will be fun.
I have a confession to make: Lately I've been seen smoking far more often than I'm comfortable with. In theory I don't want to be smoking at all...and I'm really not helping my cause by allowing myself to have 2 or 3 cigarettes in a single night just because they're presented to me. MISS! How did this happen? Much like my drinking, it seems like something that started off innocently enough and now is becoming something of a regular habit. I should say that I at least don't feel like I have any compulsion to smoke - it just happens when I'm with friends and it's available to me. Perhaps I'm more insecure about myself than I thought, and I'm afraid to not fit in the group? I dunno. All I DO know is...I better knock it off before I become a regular smoker. It's funny...I swore in life that would NEVER smoke no matter what, and here I am. MISS!
I think I'm gonna call it there, and hopefully as more things come to me I'll have material for more small posts. Seems like few people are updating anymore anyways...