exhausted, but feeling the need to write
I feel like a little something called "tact" has been lost in the world, or at least among many of the people here at Cornell. People here love, love, love over-stepping their boundaries. Maybe I annoy people for other reasons, I'm not trying to say I am perfect, but when people are just blantantly rude and obnoxious it pisses me off. Case in point, the board game scenario that I believe I have mentioned before. These people on my hall who never talk to me keep asking to borrow my stuff (knocking on my closed door at midnight nonetheless). Second, a person I occassionly talk to, haven't in a long time, asks me for a ride somewhere. Has she ever "invited" me someplace before?? No. And of course, the icing on the cake, about my favorite friend right now. I don't want to really write too much about it, but all I can say is that people need to remember that while you may put on a smile and pretend everything is ok, you can still be hurting on the inside. So just because someone may appear completely unfazed, it doesn't mean they've suddenly become immune to any emotions. I can't decide if it would be better for me to act how I feel around herL sad, jealous, hurt, even slightly angry, or just play it cool. I am trying to do the latter, but maybe I am just not being fair to her or me by doing this. Everything really isn't ok. I wish I could fix everything or, as cliche as this sounds, turn back time. It's weird how the more you get to know people, the more different sides of their personality come out. I don't know if I like what I am seeing here. People with too much nerve KILL me. But in the meantime, I'll just be happy and Meganish.
As depressed as I may sound, I actually happen to be in a fairly good mood. There are many people who don't suck around here too. I love EH. She has such strong morals and a sense of what is right or wrong, and when someone violates that, her entire opinion of them is changed. That may sound harsh or a lot to expect out of people, but I think it's good in a way. Why not expect a lot from those you care about? Also, Bennett, C, and Usa, have all been really supportive with everything as well. I am lucky to have them!
Sorry I'm rambling, I've been up almost 24 hours. This will probably make no sense in the morning.
Lastly...I want the biggest piece of lemon meringue pie ever! It's been embraced like no other. As much as he tries to be an asshole, it doesn't work, he's a nice guy. There is a sweet person beneath the sarcastic, rude exterior. He did me a huge favor tonight (one which I may have overstepped my boundaries in asking....he says that I didn't though!). I have no words :)
As depressed as I may sound, I actually happen to be in a fairly good mood. There are many people who don't suck around here too. I love EH. She has such strong morals and a sense of what is right or wrong, and when someone violates that, her entire opinion of them is changed. That may sound harsh or a lot to expect out of people, but I think it's good in a way. Why not expect a lot from those you care about? Also, Bennett, C, and Usa, have all been really supportive with everything as well. I am lucky to have them!
Sorry I'm rambling, I've been up almost 24 hours. This will probably make no sense in the morning.
Lastly...I want the biggest piece of lemon meringue pie ever! It's been embraced like no other. As much as he tries to be an asshole, it doesn't work, he's a nice guy. There is a sweet person beneath the sarcastic, rude exterior. He did me a huge favor tonight (one which I may have overstepped my boundaries in asking....he says that I didn't though!). I have no words :)