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so far:
was up until 5 am writing music. 2 pieces, both beautiful, both for my beautiful anita.
i was trying to distract myself and get inspiration (because thats how it works with me....if i get so distracted, something will hit me) so i decided to read her lj. it wasnt too long, only 2 pages of entries.
i was crying my eyes out. i felt so many emotions. i was jealous that she had feelings for him. angry because he hurt her. scared because i dont ever want to do that to her. and then loved by her entries about me...
and, of course, it hit me.
and so far, it is beautiful.
i didnt know she went in late today, so i just slept. and now shes mad.
i love her with all my heart, but i hate making her angry. it hurts me inside. i hate doing that to her.