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I haven't posted here in waaaaay too long. And, in keeping with a long tradition, I'm posting another whiny, "I'm depressed" post. Someday I'll actually use this for cheerful posts, I swear!
So, yeah, I'm down. Again. I feel lonely and isolated, surrounded by strangers who don't cuddle and barely game. I have one person I'd genuinely call a friend, a few more that I'm hoping to get to that point with, and a whole lotta folk who just know me as "exzebachay's wife".
It really hurts that I can't drive a few minutes, pile onto a couch, bed, whatever and watch movies and bullshit the night away with my friends. I spend most of my time playing stupid video games and talking to my pets. I barely see exzebachay any more, and most of his spare time is spent studying.
On top of it all, I'm pretty sure one of his female friends is making a play for him and he's dismissing it as me being paranoid. I wasn't paranoid when it came to D, dammit, and I'm not being paranoid now!
Ah, well. Back to stupid video games. No talking to animals, though, both the cat and the dog are snoring and I'd hate to wake them.
So, yeah, I'm down. Again. I feel lonely and isolated, surrounded by strangers who don't cuddle and barely game. I have one person I'd genuinely call a friend, a few more that I'm hoping to get to that point with, and a whole lotta folk who just know me as "exzebachay's wife".
It really hurts that I can't drive a few minutes, pile onto a couch, bed, whatever and watch movies and bullshit the night away with my friends. I spend most of my time playing stupid video games and talking to my pets. I barely see exzebachay any more, and most of his spare time is spent studying.
On top of it all, I'm pretty sure one of his female friends is making a play for him and he's dismissing it as me being paranoid. I wasn't paranoid when it came to D, dammit, and I'm not being paranoid now!
Ah, well. Back to stupid video games. No talking to animals, though, both the cat and the dog are snoring and I'd hate to wake them.