Karma, What Must I Learn before i can move on.
Where can I turn? Cause I need something more
Surrounded by uncertainty I'm so unsure
Tell me why I feel so alone
Cause I need to know to whom do I owe
Explain to me this conspiracy against me
And tell me how I've lost my power
This lyric explains my life entirely right now. I am looking for something a lot more genuine than all the stupid shit that surrounds me. Including people's philosophies, boys, and just the atmosphere. I just want to learn some things without being held back or completely wreckless. Why do I have to keep waiting? I know what I want, but the means aren't necessarily forgiving. Oh well I am kind of over my ranting stage. It's not worh it really. All you can do is just wait and see what happens right. No use stressing. At the same time, i need to learn how to go after what I want. Yay go life.
And I truly believe that people always leave. In the past year, any person I am close to...left....my dad whom i am very close with moved to New Brunswick, my sister which I so very easily talk to, moved to edmonton and as sad as this sounds, any guy I have shown interest in has moved to Quebec, Ontario, and um Europe. Yay. I'm not sure if these people are leaving to help me be a stronger person or if i screwed over someone in the past life that i asked for it. But ya I am kind of sick of it. I think i am a pretty decent person. Whatever I am doing wrong, i do not know. Oh well. @$&&^(%#@$%$T!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha I love life oh so very much.
I feel slightly retarded. I don't feel I know I am slightly retarded. So theres this light at the top of the door that lights up when the door is locked. Anyways that light is green. Someone asked me if it was soon time for me to go home. So i said well the green light is on so i can go. Maybe funnier if you were there. And ps. in my world red means dance. Hope you are having a fantastic day,