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[goldendragoness]

I never saw this coming. And that is saying alot for me. I mean I had exactly what I usually want. A couple girls who were cool and interested. I don't like commitment and relationships. So I date. But today I had a date with Rachel, who is sweet and easygoing and cute and I was looking forward to the date alot. I was thinking about it this afternoon. And suddenly there was a knot in my stomach. And it all dawned on me really clear. I didn't want to go on a date with anyone else. I'd found her. And I'm ready for once to put all my eggs in one basket and just give it a try. If I still end up alone it'll still be worth it.

I can honestly say I've never felt this way before. It's not like I'm in love or anything, it's to soon for any of that. But I'm willing to give it the time and focus thats needed for that to happen.

I always expected this to happen, but I never expected it to happen like a lightning bolt. This is nuts. :-D

Kathryn