Private - The darker side of the beach
It's been a weird week... I mean, good an' bad an'... Confusin'.
I mean, first of all me an' Mina - it's been real nice.I mean, I'm glad! Glad like you wouldn't believe 'cos I really didn't know what I was gonna do or say but... It's real nice bein' with her so much an' not havin' to be all... Hidin' stuff, I guess. It does feel a little weird, but I guess that's just 'cos she's a girl an' nothin' like 'Keru, him an' the fact that he IS a he bein' what I've been used to the last four years, you know? Mina's so great though an' I'm... yeah, i think I'm happy again ^^ I really should thank her for that, I didn't think I'd be able to be REAL happy with someone else after me an' 'Keru broke up so I guess it's kinda a big deal, huh?
Then the party, that was... I don't even know! Mina was drinkin', much like everyone else, but I didn't really - just had a beer to seem social, you know? I had to go see 'tousan the next day 'cos it's father's day in Europe an' since I got 'Kaasan somethin' for European mother's day... Yeah. Still, everyone seemed to have fun, that was good - seems like forever since we all got together and just 'had fun'. Normally there's someone missin' or somethin' to talk about or just plain awkward~
There was skinny dippin', probably due to the alcohol, but I sat that out - way too many questions buzzin' around in my head to wanna be naked an' wet with two of the people causin' them, you know? I skipped the bottle game too - bad memories, I guess. Well, not bad, but I kinda don't need memories right now either, although I did some interesting things... cathrine and 'Keru kissin'... That was weirder than him an' Kenny kissin' somehow. Urg, I dunno...
'Keru and Yamato's song was pretty amazin'! Made me a little... sad, I guess... I dunno, I still really care about 'Keru, I kinda made my peace with the idea I always would, but seein' him playin' an' lookin' both happy an' sad at the same time... I dunno, should that still hurt? I talked to him later, he said things with him an' Michael were bad an'... Was I glad? No. I felt kinda bad that I was happy an' he wasn't. Is that weird? I dunno, Kenny came along then so we just kinda talked an' stuff - I'll have to catch him later an' find out more. I'm allowed to still worry about him an' want him to be happy, after all~
Finally, livin' alone is way harder than I thought... It's nice, havin' my own space an' an actually place I can call 'home' after the last couple'a years of not really havin' any such place to call that. But it's lonely too. An' there's lots to remember - like to pay the bills >_> I mean, most of the utilities are covered in the rent - like the net an' water - but not the electric so... yeah ^^; After a couple'a nights without it, I don't think i'll forget again!
The rest I guess I'll put where people can see, I wanna introduce Ai-chan to the masses XD She's so dam CUTE! I think Demi-veemon's kinda jealous... At least he can't say she gets better food than him, not after he figured she did an' actually tried it, anyway~
I mean, first of all me an' Mina - it's been real nice.I mean, I'm glad! Glad like you wouldn't believe 'cos I really didn't know what I was gonna do or say but... It's real nice bein' with her so much an' not havin' to be all... Hidin' stuff, I guess. It does feel a little weird, but I guess that's just 'cos she's a girl an' nothin' like 'Keru, him an' the fact that he IS a he bein' what I've been used to the last four years, you know? Mina's so great though an' I'm... yeah, i think I'm happy again ^^ I really should thank her for that, I didn't think I'd be able to be REAL happy with someone else after me an' 'Keru broke up so I guess it's kinda a big deal, huh?
Then the party, that was... I don't even know! Mina was drinkin', much like everyone else, but I didn't really - just had a beer to seem social, you know? I had to go see 'tousan the next day 'cos it's father's day in Europe an' since I got 'Kaasan somethin' for European mother's day... Yeah. Still, everyone seemed to have fun, that was good - seems like forever since we all got together and just 'had fun'. Normally there's someone missin' or somethin' to talk about or just plain awkward~
There was skinny dippin', probably due to the alcohol, but I sat that out - way too many questions buzzin' around in my head to wanna be naked an' wet with two of the people causin' them, you know? I skipped the bottle game too - bad memories, I guess. Well, not bad, but I kinda don't need memories right now either, although I did some interesting things... cathrine and 'Keru kissin'... That was weirder than him an' Kenny kissin' somehow. Urg, I dunno...
'Keru and Yamato's song was pretty amazin'! Made me a little... sad, I guess... I dunno, I still really care about 'Keru, I kinda made my peace with the idea I always would, but seein' him playin' an' lookin' both happy an' sad at the same time... I dunno, should that still hurt? I talked to him later, he said things with him an' Michael were bad an'... Was I glad? No. I felt kinda bad that I was happy an' he wasn't. Is that weird? I dunno, Kenny came along then so we just kinda talked an' stuff - I'll have to catch him later an' find out more. I'm allowed to still worry about him an' want him to be happy, after all~
Finally, livin' alone is way harder than I thought... It's nice, havin' my own space an' an actually place I can call 'home' after the last couple'a years of not really havin' any such place to call that. But it's lonely too. An' there's lots to remember - like to pay the bills >_> I mean, most of the utilities are covered in the rent - like the net an' water - but not the electric so... yeah ^^; After a couple'a nights without it, I don't think i'll forget again!
The rest I guess I'll put where people can see, I wanna introduce Ai-chan to the masses XD She's so dam CUTE! I think Demi-veemon's kinda jealous... At least he can't say she gets better food than him, not after he figured she did an' actually tried it, anyway~