unstable decisiveness
It's kind of like those people who say they'll "start dieting after this one last ice-cream!" and "stop drinking after this one last party!" and "start fasting starting next Yom Kippur!". To avoid that kind of silliness, I ought not leave the smart decisions I should have made a while ago for "later, when I move away". Moving away won't really make anything better, just like spending two weeks in Jericho didn't make anything better, because the problem is what's going on in my head, not outside of it.
So I know I've told myself this at least a dozen times in the last few months so that I no longer really trust myself on these issues, but I am going to try to not waste my time on guys that see me as a waste of time. And I'll try really hard this time. With a little bit of space I'll get rid of all of these bothersome feelings and who knows, maybe find somebody awesome?
I'll probably change my mind by tomorrow.
So I know I've told myself this at least a dozen times in the last few months so that I no longer really trust myself on these issues, but I am going to try to not waste my time on guys that see me as a waste of time. And I'll try really hard this time. With a little bit of space I'll get rid of all of these bothersome feelings and who knows, maybe find somebody awesome?
I'll probably change my mind by tomorrow.