And the doctor said......

[godsproject31]

I went to my Gastro today and finally got the great news I have been waiting to hear for two years now, I am officially healthy enough to try to conceive our next child. Its funny though how when you get great news one moment instantly your mind goes on to the next worry in line. Which to me is could I have a VBAC with my health condition. The reason for that is I always seen my life being surrounded by kiddos...Lots of kiddos. Another C section would mean my husband and I would be lucky to get three children. Anyways so on wonders my mind with all this when I realize WAIT What are you doing?! You aren't even pregnant yet. Well I guess there is my next prayer that God will help me to take things one step at a time. I would have so much less stress if only I could slow down my thought process. I was talking to a dear friend of mine who reminded me its a genetic trait inherited to worry if you are jewish. lol I guess she must be right. So I stopped and just let myself soak in the fact that I am FINALLY allowed to simply try to get pregnant. Thank you God. That is all I can let myself think about for the moment. I am choosing to abolish stress in my life. Throw it to the wind and try to smile more. I spent the past two months simply sulking over my ileostomy. ( For those of you who dont know what an ileostomy is  It is a procedure where they pull a piece of your small instine outside your body and slice a hole in it. you are then stuck wearing a bag to catch all your fecal matter and you no longer poop normally)  I feel so lucky and thrilled with this new news! God does work miracles!
    I really can't wait to tell Ryan. I can't count the number of times I have had to come home from a visit and tell him, " No, I'm sorry honey... Not yet." And finally I get to tell him Yes! Five thirty cannot come soon enough!