Not the Best Day....
Today, January 11th was the worst day I have had in a while. I think the fact that things had actually been going well for me and I was happy just made it worse today. I don't want to be focused on negative thoughts and events and yet that is all my mind seems to keep focusing on right now. I'm hoping that journaling will help quiet my mind and let me get the rest I need before an early day begins again tomorrow.
Today was going pretty well to begin with. I woke up, talked to Ian's mom for a little bit and then went and worked out. My work out went pretty well I think, I always feel better when I go and work out because I feel like I have made myself a priority and took time out to do something for myself. Then I came home, did some things at home and then rushed off to school.
Parking was tight at school like always, but I parked my car, thought everything was fine and off to classes I went. It was later that I found out I got a parking ticket. Not just a little one, no a $150 parking ticket. I think I am going to fight against it though, just have to decide how I am going to do that... It's frustrating in many ones, one of them being that I can't afford to have that ticket right now. My dad has just been telling me in recent days how I don't have enough money to make it through to the end of the semester with living expenses and stuff. On top of that, it means that if I don't find a job soon that I won't be able to afford to be a bridesmaid in Renee's wedding and that makes me sad.
I'm also slightly sad because the dinner that Ian and I had planned to have together on the 16th may not happen until later in the week now. The weather is presenting an obstacle to our plans. Even though plans may change though, I am still very excited about having dinner with him and spending more time with him. I also know that at some point I need to meet his mom while she is out here. I am excited about that but also slightly nervous because she seems to have all these wonderful expectations of me based on what Ian has told her about me. It should be fun though and I'm sure Ian and I will find some quality time with each other too. I really miss him being here. I didn't get to talk to him tonight before bed and that kind of threw me off a little bit. I got to talk to him earlier in the day though and he was really sweet and supportive when I was upset about my ticket.
God just worked in me to tell a friend some things he needed to hear. Through that though, God dispelled all the negative thoughts that Satan was trying to use against me to weaken me. God is truly amazing. I am enveloped in His peace and His love and His amazing grace. I thank you dear Lord for showing me how precious I am to you and answering my prayers for peace. Keep me always focused on You. I love you Lord
Today was going pretty well to begin with. I woke up, talked to Ian's mom for a little bit and then went and worked out. My work out went pretty well I think, I always feel better when I go and work out because I feel like I have made myself a priority and took time out to do something for myself. Then I came home, did some things at home and then rushed off to school.
Parking was tight at school like always, but I parked my car, thought everything was fine and off to classes I went. It was later that I found out I got a parking ticket. Not just a little one, no a $150 parking ticket. I think I am going to fight against it though, just have to decide how I am going to do that... It's frustrating in many ones, one of them being that I can't afford to have that ticket right now. My dad has just been telling me in recent days how I don't have enough money to make it through to the end of the semester with living expenses and stuff. On top of that, it means that if I don't find a job soon that I won't be able to afford to be a bridesmaid in Renee's wedding and that makes me sad.
I'm also slightly sad because the dinner that Ian and I had planned to have together on the 16th may not happen until later in the week now. The weather is presenting an obstacle to our plans. Even though plans may change though, I am still very excited about having dinner with him and spending more time with him. I also know that at some point I need to meet his mom while she is out here. I am excited about that but also slightly nervous because she seems to have all these wonderful expectations of me based on what Ian has told her about me. It should be fun though and I'm sure Ian and I will find some quality time with each other too. I really miss him being here. I didn't get to talk to him tonight before bed and that kind of threw me off a little bit. I got to talk to him earlier in the day though and he was really sweet and supportive when I was upset about my ticket.
God just worked in me to tell a friend some things he needed to hear. Through that though, God dispelled all the negative thoughts that Satan was trying to use against me to weaken me. God is truly amazing. I am enveloped in His peace and His love and His amazing grace. I thank you dear Lord for showing me how precious I am to you and answering my prayers for peace. Keep me always focused on You. I love you Lord