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Life is good.Yes,as bad as it is it is good.It is nice to be a human again,to feel the suffering,the joy the pain the love the anger.I have felt all of these within these last few days.It's cold out.the leaves are dead and dying.Its dark.I have been listening to a lot of Neurosis and Isis type shit.Sludge doom metal shit it just really goes with the setting this time of year.
I left the sobriety house that I was staying at.I jut can't handle the drama anymore.So now im squatting/couch surfing or a week.Its not cool but it is necisery .Being on couches just put me back in this head space of when i was using.when i used to stay on couches and be a freeloader so i could spend all my cash on dope.Luckily Ross and Nick have made me feel totally welcome in there home.I get paid in 8 days and will be getting my own place.....MOTHERFUCKIN FINALLY.
Im ready.I have an Epaphone SG in layaway at the pawn shop.Brand new and plays like a dream.I have some cd's and a cd player.I have some paint and a canvas.Im fuckin ready.lets do this.It will be nice to have a place where Erin can come and hang out with me,sleep with me,make love with me all that good shit that we should be able to do.Im fuckin stoked.Its almost halloween.I love it.I wonder if it will snow this year like it always does.I hope.Im exhuasted and im having a hard time spelling and using punctuation.i need to go to sleep.
I left the sobriety house that I was staying at.I jut can't handle the drama anymore.So now im squatting/couch surfing or a week.Its not cool but it is necisery .Being on couches just put me back in this head space of when i was using.when i used to stay on couches and be a freeloader so i could spend all my cash on dope.Luckily Ross and Nick have made me feel totally welcome in there home.I get paid in 8 days and will be getting my own place.....MOTHERFUCKIN FINALLY.
Im ready.I have an Epaphone SG in layaway at the pawn shop.Brand new and plays like a dream.I have some cd's and a cd player.I have some paint and a canvas.Im fuckin ready.lets do this.It will be nice to have a place where Erin can come and hang out with me,sleep with me,make love with me all that good shit that we should be able to do.Im fuckin stoked.Its almost halloween.I love it.I wonder if it will snow this year like it always does.I hope.Im exhuasted and im having a hard time spelling and using punctuation.i need to go to sleep.