Dreamer
I moved rooms last night.I am in the graduation room downstairs.Oh yeah,it sucks.Im next to Todd again.He is like a 50 year old infant.I wouldn't be suprised if he shit his pants on a regular basis.
I got up early this morning so I could eat breakfast by myself,in peace.Ha.Wishfull thinking.I was eating my eggs andsomeone walked up behind me and belched in my ear....eh... pause,ponder,prey....
So I sat on the couch to write after I was done eating and someone sets next to me and asked me what I was doing.I told him I was writing and it has to be obvious that im realy into it.He just keeps talking to me about dumb girls from the meeting last night.I wish I could put a big bubble around me.
So then I go into the chapel to meditate before work....sigh...why even bother.People come in and start talking loud about a bunch of pointless dumb shit.
3:33 pm @ work.
I am a dreamer.I dream to much and it gets me into trouble.I dream while im awake.I dream while im asleep.I think dreaming is a good thing.I don't know how I would get through life without dreaming.The problem for me is that alot of times I let my head get to far from reality.I dream for things to be a certain way but they can't or wont be.So right now I am trying to decipher between logical goals and illogical dreams.I realy dont want to wake up but I have to.My mind is just so lost.I have to get a grip.Reality sucks sometimes and I am realy good at escaping reality.I have to get a handle on this.Im not using or drinking today but if I let myself get to cought up in my fantasy world I could be tomorrow.It seems that daydreams are my drug of choice these days.Sometimes it sucks to think that certain things you want so bad.....won't happen.Im sad.Im lonely.It't cloudy out .Im tired.I feel like a child.The world tells me to grow up but I don't want to.I mean I do in certain ways and I don't in others.ok snap out Matt.Life is good!ou are alive!You are free!you can hear music and feel the wind in your face! You can hear see and feel people you love.You have friends that love you.Life is good.`I can't think.I can't function.My brain has flatlined.Im sleepwalking.Probably need to sleep but I have to go to my homegroup Pallbearers tonight.I have to chair the meeting.NO TIME FOR SLEEP AT SALVATION ARMY.NO TIME TO BREATH.IM CHOKIN'.....Just remember Matt.A greatfull heart never breaks...Yeah swallow that shit...Doesn't it taste good.
I got up early this morning so I could eat breakfast by myself,in peace.Ha.Wishfull thinking.I was eating my eggs andsomeone walked up behind me and belched in my ear....eh... pause,ponder,prey....
So I sat on the couch to write after I was done eating and someone sets next to me and asked me what I was doing.I told him I was writing and it has to be obvious that im realy into it.He just keeps talking to me about dumb girls from the meeting last night.I wish I could put a big bubble around me.
So then I go into the chapel to meditate before work....sigh...why even bother.People come in and start talking loud about a bunch of pointless dumb shit.
3:33 pm @ work.
I am a dreamer.I dream to much and it gets me into trouble.I dream while im awake.I dream while im asleep.I think dreaming is a good thing.I don't know how I would get through life without dreaming.The problem for me is that alot of times I let my head get to far from reality.I dream for things to be a certain way but they can't or wont be.So right now I am trying to decipher between logical goals and illogical dreams.I realy dont want to wake up but I have to.My mind is just so lost.I have to get a grip.Reality sucks sometimes and I am realy good at escaping reality.I have to get a handle on this.Im not using or drinking today but if I let myself get to cought up in my fantasy world I could be tomorrow.It seems that daydreams are my drug of choice these days.Sometimes it sucks to think that certain things you want so bad.....won't happen.Im sad.Im lonely.It't cloudy out .Im tired.I feel like a child.The world tells me to grow up but I don't want to.I mean I do in certain ways and I don't in others.ok snap out Matt.Life is good!ou are alive!You are free!you can hear music and feel the wind in your face! You can hear see and feel people you love.You have friends that love you.Life is good.`I can't think.I can't function.My brain has flatlined.Im sleepwalking.Probably need to sleep but I have to go to my homegroup Pallbearers tonight.I have to chair the meeting.NO TIME FOR SLEEP AT SALVATION ARMY.NO TIME TO BREATH.IM CHOKIN'.....Just remember Matt.A greatfull heart never breaks...Yeah swallow that shit...Doesn't it taste good.