I want to be a robot
Man sometimes it sucks to be human.Im stressing.Im confused.Im frustrated.Im scared.I feel silly and small.I know what I want im just scared to persue it.Is it crazy to just ignore the way you feel about a person? I dont fucking know.I don't want to get hurt.I can't afford that right now.On the other hand I don't want to be stuck with all those "what ifs".I've had enough "what if " in my life.And it's not right to convince yourself that you feel any other way than you actually do feel.I find myself doing this.My brain feels like a scrambled egg.I cant afford to expose myself.But I can't ignore how i truly feel.Fuck man,can someone hit the restart button?Anyway...
Todd got another pink slip and is on restriction untill we graduate on the 27th.I will be chairing Pallbearers in his place.I did this last time he made this commitment.I don't mind.I like to chair.Service is good.I have to give Vita my flyers tonight for the Pig Smoke.It's kinda strnage making flyers for a pig smoke when I am vegetarian.Well I try to be.I sort of have to eat whatever Salvation Army feeds me.I can't bring in my own food and im not going to starve.Fuck man,two more weeks and im out of that place.Gotta go...Pallbearers starts at 7:30