Dark (but true) Thoughts (trigger warning)
**DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED**
I can't do this anymore...,,,
I don't want to stand out
I'm not doing this to rebel against gender norms
I'll never have the money for surgery, as I can barely cling to the $1,500 I have saved, which is for my exit find.
I'm tired of the silent hostility and awkwardness at work.
I wish people would stop calling me sir, he or him
I am tired of being treated as a man.
I'm sick of battling this dysphoria, which no one seems to understand.
I can't deal with Miami anymore; the people, the rudeness and lack of consideration for others.
I'm tired of being bullied by my ex / current roommate. Howog must I pay for this with her?
My job is killing me: the lack of PTO, being forced to train someone when I have social anxiety and hate my voice, being overloaded and blamed all the time.
I just want to see ME in the mirror, not some tall ugly male.
I want this existence to end somehow, because right now I am too chicken shit to kill myself, solely because I fear that I'll fuck that up too and still be alive.
All I ever wanted was a normal life. Nor I just want this one to end so the pain may finally go away and my male body can die, so my female soul can be free.
I can't do this anymore...,,,
I don't want to stand out
I'm not doing this to rebel against gender norms
I'll never have the money for surgery, as I can barely cling to the $1,500 I have saved, which is for my exit find.
I'm tired of the silent hostility and awkwardness at work.
I wish people would stop calling me sir, he or him
I am tired of being treated as a man.
I'm sick of battling this dysphoria, which no one seems to understand.
I can't deal with Miami anymore; the people, the rudeness and lack of consideration for others.
I'm tired of being bullied by my ex / current roommate. Howog must I pay for this with her?
My job is killing me: the lack of PTO, being forced to train someone when I have social anxiety and hate my voice, being overloaded and blamed all the time.
I just want to see ME in the mirror, not some tall ugly male.
I want this existence to end somehow, because right now I am too chicken shit to kill myself, solely because I fear that I'll fuck that up too and still be alive.
All I ever wanted was a normal life. Nor I just want this one to end so the pain may finally go away and my male body can die, so my female soul can be free.