Argh.
So what if I can't connect with my family anymore, and I haven't seen either of my parents for about a week? No big deal I guess. I mean, I kind of have a new family and all. And that's been great. But I still miss having my parents. Bobby doesn't seem to care, except he might get a little emotional every once in a while. I'm going to turn in a resume for a job tomorrow, and I've finally figured out my service stuff. Lucky too, the deadline's on Wednesday. I don't know if I have a good chance of getting the job, seeing as I can't get there until 4:15 and they close at 6 on weekdays. But I think I made a pretty good resume, so hopefully I stand a chance. I don't know.. Lately I've been going crazy. Like I just wanted to throw my stuff into a car and drive away. And yeah, I've thought about things that I know I shouldn't, doing things that wouldn't help the situation but would more or less take me out of the picture. I haven't felt like this since after I was diagnosed with colitis. I can't describe why, just like everything isn't ever going to be the same, for better or worse. At least this time around it's not my fault. I really don't like incompetent people, they drive me crazy. When I go off to college everything will just resolve itself. New environment, new people, new responsibilities, new oppurtunities. Thursday and Friday were fun though, and knowing that I've still got a lot to look forward to helps to really keep me going.
College in less than 2 years... I can't wait until I'm older. I can't wait until I'm 18, now that I think about it. Better jobs, more privileges... It'll be good.
Anyway, I think I'm going to go to sleep. I feel like the only one who hasn't fucking changed.
Until later.
College in less than 2 years... I can't wait until I'm older. I can't wait until I'm 18, now that I think about it. Better jobs, more privileges... It'll be good.
Anyway, I think I'm going to go to sleep. I feel like the only one who hasn't fucking changed.
Until later.