ok...

[goddessoffall]

James called at 6pm and told me he had to stay late at work so he wouldnt be able to come over tonight as planned...

its kinda hard knowing my natural reaction to this occurance...

if Teddie was online i know where i would be tonight... with him... somewhere... anywhere... with his hand in this pussy i would be lost in orgasms...

something as simple as James not making being with me more important than his commitment to his job... well... truth be told... that bothers me... concerns me...

takes so little for me to dismiss people...

ok... so now i just figured out the harder part...

how do i supress my natural way... how do i change the way i see things... the way i handle things... my reaction...

what do i do now...

i truly... do not know...