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[goddesseinie]

I have a sinking feeling that its too late, just too late to fix this mess. Too late this time, I waited too long, prayed for too many might-be's that turned into didn't become's. Too late to postpone starting over. Funny, all the other times I was hell bent on running, starting over when things got tough...but now I'm screaming, silently screaming at the top of my lungs, begging for this to not happen. ..even when I try to not fuck up things, I end up doing just that.

Is this going to be me for the rest of my life? Will nothing ever change?