slight update
I know it's been forever, but I guess now is better than never
so I just got back from seeing a fun movie with two wonderful women, whom I've missed very much.
I got a dumb 73 on a test today, i think that may be the lowest grade I've gotten ever on a test, although, it was science, so yeah
I thought something worse might be wrong, but I guess I was just lonely, everything seems a lot better now that I've seen some old friends. I guess I'm more dependent than I wanted to believe. And I really don't think that's a bad thing
Pretty much every year of my life I have figured that I reached maximum maturity, and I retrospectively realize by the end of the year that I am more mature than I was when I thought that, and so I think that I am now at maximum maturity, and the cycle repeats. There are a lot of things that I go through great effort trying to convince myself are untrue. I suppose there won't be any more wasted effort trying to conceal from myself the fact that I am growing, and will be until I die, and at this point I feel prepared to be proud of being immature, because at least I'm shedding naivety.
i know I sound like a melodramatic teenager, but heck, I am a melodramatic teenager, and I'm likely to be an over-dramatic 21 year old in a matter of years, and a flamboyant 30 something in a decade or two, and a strange old man in no time at all. Whatever I become, it's me. And as long as I dont pretend I'm at maximum maturity, then I always have time to change it to something better. Maybe not better, but different.
haha, I'm such a drama queen
so I just got back from seeing a fun movie with two wonderful women, whom I've missed very much.
I got a dumb 73 on a test today, i think that may be the lowest grade I've gotten ever on a test, although, it was science, so yeah
I thought something worse might be wrong, but I guess I was just lonely, everything seems a lot better now that I've seen some old friends. I guess I'm more dependent than I wanted to believe. And I really don't think that's a bad thing
Pretty much every year of my life I have figured that I reached maximum maturity, and I retrospectively realize by the end of the year that I am more mature than I was when I thought that, and so I think that I am now at maximum maturity, and the cycle repeats. There are a lot of things that I go through great effort trying to convince myself are untrue. I suppose there won't be any more wasted effort trying to conceal from myself the fact that I am growing, and will be until I die, and at this point I feel prepared to be proud of being immature, because at least I'm shedding naivety.
i know I sound like a melodramatic teenager, but heck, I am a melodramatic teenager, and I'm likely to be an over-dramatic 21 year old in a matter of years, and a flamboyant 30 something in a decade or two, and a strange old man in no time at all. Whatever I become, it's me. And as long as I dont pretend I'm at maximum maturity, then I always have time to change it to something better. Maybe not better, but different.
haha, I'm such a drama queen