Baron Munchausen

Nov 24, 2004 00:17

For some reason I've had an issue going through the self-checkout lane at Shaws. I mean, there's nothing difficult about it, I just never really liked doing it. But I've been doing it quite a bit lately, and its great. I also feel confident that my support of automation will deprive someone of a job, which is nice.

Unrelated, when I was little, I dunno, 6-7 or something, I had a dream that I was walking on Cabot street near where it intersects with Austin (near downtown) with my cousin Summer. Well, I'm pretty sure it was Summer, it was a long time ago now. Anyway, I was 6 or 7 in my dream, and in my dream I was on my own - eg I didn't have to go home, there were no parents waiting for me, it was just me and my cousin walking around, enjoying the summer's day, no responsibilities or cares in the world. Just the green trees that dot Portsmouth, the smell of summer, and the sounds of the small city.

At one point in my dream a group of my friends came from around the corner, and we just talked and laughed, and we went our separate ways again. We didn't make plans where or when to meetup again, but I knew that they were somewhere in Portsmouth, walking around, and that we would meet again. There were no worries about scheduling a meetup, no ill feelings about any of them. They were all my friends and we would meet again.

And that was pretty much the whole dream. You wouldn't think it from reading that description, but that was one of the most amazing and wonderful dreams I've ever had - I remember the feeling of just complete bliss I felt waking up, and the emotion was so strong that I still remember how it feels 18 years later.

I've been asking myself lately what about that dream made me feel so happy, just because if maybe I could figure out what it was, I could incorporate that into my life - not to say I'm not happy right now, I am. But I'm always trying to be happier, regardless.

I think it has something to do with innocence, which is too bad, because its pretty hard to get innocence back, especially when you strive for wisdom and educating yourself.

On one hand, its great to understand the way things work (scientifically, socially, philosophically, religiously, whatever) - and its healthy and safe, to both you and other people, to be educated. But on the other hand, it certainly does take away some of the magic, wonder and mystery of life. I guess I don't know how much to take from column A and how much to take from column B, but I think I need a little more magic, as my leftbrain-dedness has pushed me pretty far into column A since I was 6. We'll see!
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