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So, this entry will be kind of a "proud" one, if you don't feel like reading about my strengths/weaknesses, then don't bother going any further.
All throughout my school-experience (from elementary to high school), I have always understood just about everything presented to me, and I've never been really bad at any one subject. I don't mean to sound arrogant, I just mean that I've always been a smart kid. I couldn't comprehend what it would be like to not understand something, to "not get it". I mean sometimes you dont' get things right away, obviously I'm not saying I'm perfect, but eventually, with enough time and effort, I thought I could always understand something. I wondered what it would feel like to be one of those kids that never "got it". I wondered how it would feel if that information and understanding that felt so innate to me was just not there in my brain. Well, now I know what that feels like.
I don't "get it".
College is kicking my ass. I'm taking classes that are so hard, I feel like a complete idiot for even thinking I could ever do it. It's like everyone is smarter than you, no one cares that you don't get it, and no one else understands how anybody could possibly lack the knowledge and understanding that seems so innate to them. I am small. I mean I'll work my ass off to succeed, but I've finally realized that sometimes that's just not enough.
I really don't mean to sound so depressing, I mean I am sad that I'm and idiot and all, but there are still good things going on in my life right now that are making me happy.
Just thought I'd add that on to prevent this entry from being completely a complaint. That's all for now.
All throughout my school-experience (from elementary to high school), I have always understood just about everything presented to me, and I've never been really bad at any one subject. I don't mean to sound arrogant, I just mean that I've always been a smart kid. I couldn't comprehend what it would be like to not understand something, to "not get it". I mean sometimes you dont' get things right away, obviously I'm not saying I'm perfect, but eventually, with enough time and effort, I thought I could always understand something. I wondered what it would feel like to be one of those kids that never "got it". I wondered how it would feel if that information and understanding that felt so innate to me was just not there in my brain. Well, now I know what that feels like.
I don't "get it".
College is kicking my ass. I'm taking classes that are so hard, I feel like a complete idiot for even thinking I could ever do it. It's like everyone is smarter than you, no one cares that you don't get it, and no one else understands how anybody could possibly lack the knowledge and understanding that seems so innate to them. I am small. I mean I'll work my ass off to succeed, but I've finally realized that sometimes that's just not enough.
I really don't mean to sound so depressing, I mean I am sad that I'm and idiot and all, but there are still good things going on in my life right now that are making me happy.
Just thought I'd add that on to prevent this entry from being completely a complaint. That's all for now.