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yeah, so spring break is pretty much over. its 11 oclock pm on saturday night. and tomarrow is a sunday filled with homework and well pretty much just homework.
so i dunno.
my break was relaxing. somewhat boring at times, but relaxing.
i basically just watched movies the whole time. and i hung out with skye and jordan a lot.
do you ever get the feeling that you are losing one of your best friends to someone else? do you ever feel like you cant compete with someone else? like theres just no point cuz you dont compare? you dont talk enough, you're boring, you do the same thing every night, whereas this other person can do whatever they fucking want whenever they want, and you feel like your best friend is just sick of doing the same thing with you and they would rather spend more time with that other person? and its awkward when your best friend tells you stories about what her and the other person did and their inside jokes that you wish you understood but you really dont. you feel left out? i know i do. i dont want to lose one of my best friends. i dont at all. and i feel like its happening, again. why does this always happen? why doesnt it always happen to me? this is like the second time in one school year that this has happened. and now that i think about it, it must have something to do with me. i dont want my best friend to rather hang out with someone else. i dont want to have to look at her profile on AIM and see oh BFF4LIFE!! and not ever see mine name, but two other peroples names instead. this really isnt making much sense. but i dont want to lose another friend. especially this one. i just cant compete.
i hope everyone had a great spring break.
see you guys on monday.