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gnork

Thinking.

Apr 29, 2006 23:18

When I think about how I'll be graduating in less than a month - how I will no longer be in high school but will have an out-of-state summer job and be college-bound in the fall - I have this weird feeling. Something like, "So much is going to change, so why do I feel so normal?" (And by "normal," I mean relative to me! :P ) Shouldn't I be really ( Read more... )

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1great_escape April 30 2006, 05:15:18 UTC

I think the reason you're not jittery or something is BECAUSE you have everything planned out. Most people don't have the whole highschool to job to college thing worked out for them, so they know that they have the whole summer to think about things and get all jittery. But you have everything planned out.

Also, I think it's part of your personality. You have everything under control and planned, so you don't need to be jittery.

I hope at least SOME of that made sense.

gnork April 30 2006, 05:33:57 UTC

It makes sense, except I often don't have things under control but rather make up for that by trying to have things in control. :P

Still, though - shouldn't I at least be really excited? (That is, happy-excited.) I'm just... blah. I become excited only in random spurts. It's weird and hard to explain. :/

1great_escape April 30 2006, 05:35:32 UTC

I bet it's just the end of the year rush and stuff. You're busy and so you don't have time for emotions to set in. Give it time.

gnork April 30 2006, 05:37:01 UTC

Funny, how you're more in tune with this than I am. Ahh, well. Can't wait for this end-of-the-year rush to be over.

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oddlittleangel April 30 2006, 20:20:51 UTC

you want feeling weird? i've had to radically change and adjust all of my life plans to changing circumstances and goals. all of them. i'm going to a university (a GREAT one, don't get me wrong, that i had hardly considered as even an option a year ago. i'm still doing my politics and writing thing, but shit. i'm staying in town, and my parents are trying to get me to LIVE AT HOME. i want everything to change, to feel different and to be completely different, but so many things are just going to be the same. i'm happy with it, but still.

how about that for weirdness?

gnork May 1 2006, 00:25:07 UTC

It's pretty weird, yes. But I'm not comparing. :)