I think i may have reached a decision. I choose my Superman. Because my Ogre has given up on me. He doesn't try to contact me. It's been entirely too long and he just proves the more time i spend with him that he just really doesn't care. So i am walking away from you. Not happily, but this is something i have to do. I should not have to 'prove' to ( Read more... )

i cant waste time ( Read more... )

OK....Here is me..no more lies...no more masks...the real me...

ive lost myself amidst all the tyrany in this world...too much going on...too much to handle...to much to think about...and nothing to hold on to...my grip is slipping on my one true love...my grip of life is hanging by a thread...and to be quite honest...i couldnt care less...because ( Read more... )

she's easing her way back into my life...slowly but surely...her smile makes me melt...her laugh sings me into oblivion...her eyes put me into a trance....they hypnotize me...so brown...so beautiful...so big...her skin is creamy caramel...so soft...minus the sticky...her voice sings me to sleep...sometimes i wish i could just touch her one last ( Read more... )

there's nothing more i can say on this matter...for fear of speaking the truth...and someone reading it...

umm...how goes life? (happy holidays to you too by the way...although its a little late *cringes* sorry) i quit my job at the feedlot cuz zac was giving me hell about things and the fact that im a lesbian so...yeah...wasnt too hot on the idea ( Read more... )

i cant take it anymore...i hate the way she trashes me and Ryke doesnt seem to care...i hate it that even though i dont want her to be friends with her..she still is...behind my back...it doesnt seem to bother her that it hurts me...that everytime she calls her a pet name like booger butt or sugar booger...it kills me...cuz then i wonder...does an ( Read more... )

so...instead of sleeping with me...she's in the room with Sierra because Sierra is skitzin and she doesnt want to be left in the room alone....so instead of Jennifer saying "i cant...i really need to go to bed" she chose to stay in there...so here i sit...listening to the most depressing song known to man...and pondering my existence...when Sierra ( Read more... )

she left me standing in the middle o the road...heartbroken...again...someone please tell me how much longer im gonna have to bear with this and tell myself its ok? cuz somehow...i know i wont be able to much longer....

there is no subject that i can think of to fit htis...she doesnt care that i dont wanther to be friends with her...ahe doesnt understand where i coming from...and she never will...and im tired of dealing with it...she can be friends with her...but i wont be there....cz i wont stand for it...i hate her...and she doesnt care...and she still wants to ( Read more... )

detached...that's exactly what i am...my thoughts and feelings are detached from my physical body...and both are detached from this world...yes im alive...breathing...living...moving...but only in an instant...only in a moment...for a fragment of time i feel...i breathe...i listen...i know....i dont really know where all this is coming from but all ( Read more... )