impending doom.... whats that like?
ok... today has been wierd...
i woke up at 11:00... and sat around for what felt like 3 hours... looked at the clock, and it had only been 45 minutes... put on some clothes... wiped off the excess make-up, smeared on my face, and slathered more on, in attempts to make it look like i care what i look like...
i smoked 3 cigarettes in a row... i couldnt get enough...
and then i drove to school, and half hour early... sat in my car, and stared at the bushes in front of me for maybe 15 minutes... and then started reading a book.... by the time i looked up, and wondered what time it was, it was 1:45... i was 15 minutes late for my class... after 5 minutes late to class, youre absent... so, i decided that it wouldnt fucking matter if i didnt show up, anyway...
i was driving home, and for some reason, i couldnt make myself turn onto my street... then i found myself on the freeway... i drove down river road... and decided i dont have the means to be galavanting all over puyallup... so, i turned around, and went home...
on the drive, all i could think about was Dan.... strange miscelaneous memories that would otherwise seem unimportant... but, made me cry, anyway... the kind of memories that POP into your mind, and shake your senses, and stir your emotions, SO suddenly, that the next thing you know, youre crying...
Sarah just called me, and apparently everyone is worried, because she got home, and my purse is there, and im not... lol... SEE IM IN SUCH A STRANGE MOOD!!!! i even left my purse...
i woke up at 11:00... and sat around for what felt like 3 hours... looked at the clock, and it had only been 45 minutes... put on some clothes... wiped off the excess make-up, smeared on my face, and slathered more on, in attempts to make it look like i care what i look like...
i smoked 3 cigarettes in a row... i couldnt get enough...
and then i drove to school, and half hour early... sat in my car, and stared at the bushes in front of me for maybe 15 minutes... and then started reading a book.... by the time i looked up, and wondered what time it was, it was 1:45... i was 15 minutes late for my class... after 5 minutes late to class, youre absent... so, i decided that it wouldnt fucking matter if i didnt show up, anyway...
i was driving home, and for some reason, i couldnt make myself turn onto my street... then i found myself on the freeway... i drove down river road... and decided i dont have the means to be galavanting all over puyallup... so, i turned around, and went home...
on the drive, all i could think about was Dan.... strange miscelaneous memories that would otherwise seem unimportant... but, made me cry, anyway... the kind of memories that POP into your mind, and shake your senses, and stir your emotions, SO suddenly, that the next thing you know, youre crying...
Sarah just called me, and apparently everyone is worried, because she got home, and my purse is there, and im not... lol... SEE IM IN SUCH A STRANGE MOOD!!!! i even left my purse...