Who did?
I'm on the same slow decline,
I'm on the same up rise,
Still no solution to the same problems,
post it over and over again,
Going up, coming back down.
Today, I just don't know how I feel.
I really don't care today.
It was nice to just get up and go.
I'm still in allota pain but at least for today.
I remembered my whole life.
It's repetition, It's up, down and levels.
All the crazy things I learned and did.
All the relationships and friends,
I lived life today to the fullest.
It drained me but I'm glad I did it.
Last night and this morning I did allot of thinking
and I know I'm still really disappointed in myself,
but I understand why I've been acting so fucked up.
I still don't know what I'm going to do to fix things
But I know that really soon, my whole life will be different.
Today, I did the first steps to try to make things better,
I was sucessful but I'm proud I woke up and did something.
I wasn't mean today ethier and I feel really bad about being shady for so long
The pain has just gotten to me and broken me down, and I will keep
getting more tired and more tired until I ethier suffocate in my sleep,
or get stronger drungs.
I guess that's my hard reality, being lonely isn't helping me stay happy
but I mean at least I'm not super depressed.