Good evening
Well, college has started...again. It seems to be going dandy...dandy hah..never used that word before. Anyways, I got an apartment up in Hattiesburg which isn't bad at all...except that it's two bedrooms and I don't have a roommate which isn't a problem but I wouldn't mind having one that I know and can trust. My classes aren't too bad, just have a lot of writing to do. Not too much else is going on in this life with an exception of moving and getting cable internet! woohoo!!!!...oh and can't forget the expansion to World of Warcraft...woot and all that shit.
I've been thinking a lot of the past lately. People have come and gone in my life and many remain. Many times in life people have to sacrifice what they currently want or need for future goals and it can be hard at times. For me, I have had to sacrifice time with my family and friends to accomplish something that is going to better my life for the most part. It hurts but not as bad as it used to...you know, taking that first step toward being part of something larger than yourself...I guess I have had to turn into a thinking person not someone who had to feel all the time. Which brings me to my next thought...relationships.
I still don't have anything really bad to say about them. I've realized that being me is not something that someone looking for a better life would want...most of the women I've dated since my last relationship have had a problem with my, I wouldn't say inability, but maybe not showing as much emotion as they want in their lives or attention, so to say. It's not that I don't care, I just want the best future I can possibly give to myself and to whomever decides I'm the man for them. So I tend to come across as carefree and spontaneous...as far as sex goes and doing fun things. When it comes down to a serious relationship, I tend to let the woman know that I have to accomplish my goals in life and create a future so that I can settle down comfortably with her.
Some of the women I've dated say they understand but again they tend not to stick around...heh I can't really blame them if they want what they want sooner than when I can give it to them. Others bitch about not being able to see or spend quality time with me more than 1 to 3 times a week. I can't help that at all. All I tell them is that if they want to be with me that they are more than welcome to stick around and I'll do my best to make them happy until I finish school (next December) but it doesn't seem to be enough. Bah, anyways, I don't see the big deal lol... I know if someone I cared about asked me to wait for something serious until they bettered themselves I'd be more than happy to wait. Then again that seems like a long time to some people lol...I always say the best comes to those who wait. And if I don't take my education seriously at this point in my life then I might as well hang it up...
People tend to sit around and bitch about what is wrong in life, and not do anything to rectify the situation. I'm not saying that I'm innocent of this but I've learned and took a step forward. I tend to take a step backwards also when things get too hectic...I mean who doesn't? What I'm trying to say is that the more you put things off the harder these things become to face on a day to day basis...I personally have to take a step forward and not let anyone or anything hold me back...even if it means not getting too deep into relationships.
I've been thinking a lot of the past lately. People have come and gone in my life and many remain. Many times in life people have to sacrifice what they currently want or need for future goals and it can be hard at times. For me, I have had to sacrifice time with my family and friends to accomplish something that is going to better my life for the most part. It hurts but not as bad as it used to...you know, taking that first step toward being part of something larger than yourself...I guess I have had to turn into a thinking person not someone who had to feel all the time. Which brings me to my next thought...relationships.
I still don't have anything really bad to say about them. I've realized that being me is not something that someone looking for a better life would want...most of the women I've dated since my last relationship have had a problem with my, I wouldn't say inability, but maybe not showing as much emotion as they want in their lives or attention, so to say. It's not that I don't care, I just want the best future I can possibly give to myself and to whomever decides I'm the man for them. So I tend to come across as carefree and spontaneous...as far as sex goes and doing fun things. When it comes down to a serious relationship, I tend to let the woman know that I have to accomplish my goals in life and create a future so that I can settle down comfortably with her.
Some of the women I've dated say they understand but again they tend not to stick around...heh I can't really blame them if they want what they want sooner than when I can give it to them. Others bitch about not being able to see or spend quality time with me more than 1 to 3 times a week. I can't help that at all. All I tell them is that if they want to be with me that they are more than welcome to stick around and I'll do my best to make them happy until I finish school (next December) but it doesn't seem to be enough. Bah, anyways, I don't see the big deal lol... I know if someone I cared about asked me to wait for something serious until they bettered themselves I'd be more than happy to wait. Then again that seems like a long time to some people lol...I always say the best comes to those who wait. And if I don't take my education seriously at this point in my life then I might as well hang it up...
People tend to sit around and bitch about what is wrong in life, and not do anything to rectify the situation. I'm not saying that I'm innocent of this but I've learned and took a step forward. I tend to take a step backwards also when things get too hectic...I mean who doesn't? What I'm trying to say is that the more you put things off the harder these things become to face on a day to day basis...I personally have to take a step forward and not let anyone or anything hold me back...even if it means not getting too deep into relationships.