tired

[glueweed]

so we broke up.
i decided it.
im tired of the bs.
i mean im always tired of it.
for some reason though today i just couldnt
stand the thought of spending forever with someone
that could constantly do this stupid stuff
and be selfish like he is a few days a week.
im running out of excuses to tell myself
to justify his actions. im running out
of 2nd chances to give him. im just running
out. and im young and i should have
the whole world infront of me but i feel
like i have nothing to look forward to anymore.
everythings fine for a few days and then it
gets back to nothing. im just tired of
it. and i always feel trapped and secluded
from the people that were always there for me
and care about me. i lost so much in the name
of love, and none of that even seems necessary.
and i just needed to get that out.
im off to work, to make money to support me.
and yeah we probably will end up back together
i just dont know what its going to take
for him to realize his stupid accusations and
selfish bullshit and constantly doubting me
have to stop for good. i deserve better than that
i should never be treated like that bc of what
someone else put him through. or because he had
a shitty day and doubts himself. thats stupid.
okay.