i haven't written in here since the august fiasco. and i don't know if i will again after this ( Read more... )

alright. so i take it everyone thinks that he/she knows what happened.
now, here's the deal.
-unless i have told you myself, you don't know shit. basically all of the rumors that are going around are unfounded and untrue. and if you want to talk; go ahead, talk. it doesn't really mean that much to me anymore.
thank you, sincerely, to all the ( Read more... )

i wish i could stop crying myself to sleep.
no matter how okay i think i am, it always comes back at the end of the day.
<3<3

"that slowdance didn't last very long...
so now i guess i'll be moving on.
but it was nice...
goddamn, it was nice."

i am thinking it's a sign
that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images,
and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned.

go see garden state.  NOW.
it was amazing.  one of the best movies i've seen in awhile.  and there's this wonderful version of "such great heights" in it.  so cute.  and it made alot of sense to me.  and it was just another sign ( Read more... )

"there's something about the look in your eyes/something i noticed when the light was just right/it reminded me twice that i was alive/and it reminded me that you're so worth the fight"

umm i need to figure out where i want to put all my tattoos...because i know what i want, but i'm not positive of where i want them.  HELP.
i just ate a vegan boca ( Read more... )

smoking cigarettes more than i should
my hands won't stop shaking and that can't be good
i would forget you, if only i could
think about anything else...i'm fucking exausted and my stomach is killing me. and i've been all crying and paranoid to brian for the past week. i fucking hate being a girl. if i didn't want babies so bad, i would get a ( Read more... )

and i just saw napalm in your eyes.

please--i'm asking of you one thing: don't let me down. i've given you everything and more. i've done things for you that i thought i never would. and now, as much as i care about you...i'm still scared. i mean, how can i not be?!
it's funny how love doesn't always equal complete trust.and i mean i guess i' ( Read more... )

i have no self-esteem and being bipolar is probably the shittiest thing in the whole world.  and i need to stop trying to fix the world's problems when i can't even fix my own.

but i'm moving in two weeks and i'm pretty damn excited.  let the party begin...or the biggest struggle of my entire life.  either way; it works.

i've got the apartment, i've got the friends, i've got the boy--i've got the fucking life.
now i just need *the* job.
and i'm working on it.

and i mean then there's the family problems. but theres not really much i can do but ignore those at this point. because i'm gonna do it on my own. and i'm gonna do it right. i swear it this time.

brace ( Read more... )

wow ( Read more... )