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well were should i start. Okay for the first time in my life i am enjoying being by myself.I'm using this time to basically find myself. for a while now i have been trying to fill a void in my life that is not my responsibility to do. It's like you want some thing and u know it's not good for you. It's like i was trying to be in a life that wasn't desinged for me. I understand that u can't help who you love and that was the hard part and actually im still trying to deal that. How do u deal with the fact that u want to be with some one that want to be with u but won't be with u because it is morally wrong. I have dealt with this for a while and now i can't pretend anymore. I refuse. I'm praying that GOd will continue to help me to direct my love and feelings in a positive way. i guess everything we think we want is not what God want for us to have. And of course what i wanted is not in God's plan. And i am learning the hard way that love really don't love anyone and that love really hurts. Its krazi every one wants it but when u have how do u handle it? but u know what i have learned and who ever i'm with nextwill know that they are loved from the bottom of my heart. I mean i have this yearning and this void that i know only God can fill and heal so i have accepted that and i am letting him heal it for me. I'm thankful that i'm still here and i'm taking this as another opportunity to just be careful