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i'm happy, today. i'm still anxious and nervous about school, i don't know why. i don't want to mess up but maybe i already have. it's okay though. i'll see chris very soon and i'm so excited. i have so many less things to worry about now. but i'm starting to realize who i really can count on. just telling yourself you're a good friend isn't enough. you really have to be there, make an effort. change your plans just a little bit. it's okay, i don't need to rely on anyone. i can handle myself. but stop acting like you care just because you think you do. this is why i never talk to anyone. when i rely on other people, i get dissapointed. its not hard to say you'll do something, and do it. or tell me otherwise. this week i'm going to sleep, and going to class and doing lots of work and resting and you shouldn't bother calling me.