ho-hum, bedtime
Mmph, tiredness. Been feeling so rushed and stressed lately. I've started moving a few things out of my apartment in Kato, whatever i can fit in bags and boxes when i head home for a weekend or whatever. Not looking forward to moving all this damn crap. I have too much stuff and I cant get rid of it cuz I will need it when I find an apartment in the Cities after the summer. and I dont know exactly what I will need or not so I gotta keep all of it. Which means renting a storage unit. I wanted to not have to pay rent over the summer. Blah.
My internship is going well but making me broke as a joke filling up my gas tank all the time. And when I move home, it will be an hour and a half with change from Roch to Chanhassen. I'll probably be driving from Erik's more often.
Driving is another source of stress. My car is 12 years old and makes a lot of unfriendly sounds sometimes. I really need it to last through the summer while I save up for a new used one. But who knows if it will, you know? When i get the money i want to give it a tune up in hopes that will help it last a few more months.
But there's always so many things to do "when I get the money". I will need a new computer soon, mine likes to refuse to turn on for days at a time. While I'm home over the summer I'll have my family's computer, assuming that thing doesnt die too, having been fried twice by power outages.
And I need a computer around so I can talk to my hunnie. We;re both so busy now. Its hard for him to find time to drive down to visit and when i find the time to go up to his place, my car likes to make it difficult. And I need my car to get me to my job so i gotta baby it. So I miss Erik. Its been two weeks since I've seen him and will probably be another before I can. And my computer was being fucky so i didnt get to talk to him for a while but its working now, thankfully, so i can at least say hi to my handsome.
Just a lot of shit on my mind right now. I try to keep it at bay and deal with things as they come but they creep up on me.. at night when I'm too tired to fight them off or I've been sober for a few days or i've spent a few days rushing to and fro. Since my daddy died it feels like I get overwhelmed so easily. I dont know if its just because I'm emotional and cry easily these days, or if its just cuz I've never been good with stress and a lot is piling up on me right now. I can't wait till summer so i can spend some more time with Erik. Not to sound like a total chick but he's just soothing to my heart, just his presence seems to calm me and make my burdens feel a bit lighter.
My internship is going well but making me broke as a joke filling up my gas tank all the time. And when I move home, it will be an hour and a half with change from Roch to Chanhassen. I'll probably be driving from Erik's more often.
Driving is another source of stress. My car is 12 years old and makes a lot of unfriendly sounds sometimes. I really need it to last through the summer while I save up for a new used one. But who knows if it will, you know? When i get the money i want to give it a tune up in hopes that will help it last a few more months.
But there's always so many things to do "when I get the money". I will need a new computer soon, mine likes to refuse to turn on for days at a time. While I'm home over the summer I'll have my family's computer, assuming that thing doesnt die too, having been fried twice by power outages.
And I need a computer around so I can talk to my hunnie. We;re both so busy now. Its hard for him to find time to drive down to visit and when i find the time to go up to his place, my car likes to make it difficult. And I need my car to get me to my job so i gotta baby it. So I miss Erik. Its been two weeks since I've seen him and will probably be another before I can. And my computer was being fucky so i didnt get to talk to him for a while but its working now, thankfully, so i can at least say hi to my handsome.
Just a lot of shit on my mind right now. I try to keep it at bay and deal with things as they come but they creep up on me.. at night when I'm too tired to fight them off or I've been sober for a few days or i've spent a few days rushing to and fro. Since my daddy died it feels like I get overwhelmed so easily. I dont know if its just because I'm emotional and cry easily these days, or if its just cuz I've never been good with stress and a lot is piling up on me right now. I can't wait till summer so i can spend some more time with Erik. Not to sound like a total chick but he's just soothing to my heart, just his presence seems to calm me and make my burdens feel a bit lighter.