*acceptance and hatered*
I've come to terms with myself. i've come to term with the fact that Ian was and is a complete asshole an manipulative little shit. He planted these ideas in my head, and like an idiot i believed him. i'm upset that i gave a part of myself to him, a part of my soul, my heart, and my love. and yet i am not sorry. I've decided what i want to do with my life, an i'm going to spend the rest of it in Europe. A part of me has died along with the departure of my first true love. He cannot realise his return of that love and that is what hurts the most. I will always love Ian Costa, i will always always carry a part of him with me, an he will always carry a part of me with him. I hope that he will for the rest of his life, regret that he threw me away and lost the best thing of his life. Ian Costa i love you, but you blew it. If it was up to me i would take you back if you came, but i would be much the wiser. but it's not up to me. an your not coming back so i say my farewells an i kiss you goodbye. Goodbye, my love.
Eryn
Eryn