Its been a while
Not been having the best time of things lately, having lots of moodswings and trying to keep my agression under control. Started taking some herbal tablets to regulate my mood and keep me calm so im giving them time to work to see if ill improve a bit.
Got some painkillers which are all natural so fingers crossed they kick in.
I swear it is no fun being a girl, i cant wait to get the whole baby thing out of the way so i can get rid of my womb! If that was gone, im positive life would improve!
Anyway other than that my relationship is still here, we've had some rocky patches and arguments, it came to crisis talks last week but its all ok. Providing some certain things begin changing im sure we will work it out. Despite all the bad things, i do want this one to work out. He is a decent enough guy. I think im just so used to arseholes that i cant think straight when someone is actually being nice to me. Its almost as if i enjoy being depressed, like i need a drama to cling to. Maybe im afraid of being happy and just cant let go, i dont know but whatever it'll sort itself out in time.
Went out on saturday which was fun, just me, dre, amy and luke. Was an odd mixture but it worked and we all drank, danced and had a good time. Took some mad pics which is always good! Then i stayed at lukes and played with his kitten sascha. Got back to mine later and made fajitas.
Hope everyone out in LJ land is ok. Miss u guys! xxx
Got some painkillers which are all natural so fingers crossed they kick in.
I swear it is no fun being a girl, i cant wait to get the whole baby thing out of the way so i can get rid of my womb! If that was gone, im positive life would improve!
Anyway other than that my relationship is still here, we've had some rocky patches and arguments, it came to crisis talks last week but its all ok. Providing some certain things begin changing im sure we will work it out. Despite all the bad things, i do want this one to work out. He is a decent enough guy. I think im just so used to arseholes that i cant think straight when someone is actually being nice to me. Its almost as if i enjoy being depressed, like i need a drama to cling to. Maybe im afraid of being happy and just cant let go, i dont know but whatever it'll sort itself out in time.
Went out on saturday which was fun, just me, dre, amy and luke. Was an odd mixture but it worked and we all drank, danced and had a good time. Took some mad pics which is always good! Then i stayed at lukes and played with his kitten sascha. Got back to mine later and made fajitas.
Hope everyone out in LJ land is ok. Miss u guys! xxx