An Extremely Angry Rant
You know, I was doing good, starting on my notes for English because I've procrastinated too much already. I promised myself, nothing until I finish at least the Biblical section of summary type things. But no, I need to rant RIGHT. NOW.
What you need to know: So my great uncle is continuously losing track of his phone because my brothers and cousins like to play with it.
LOOK HERE MISTER. I UNDERSTAND THAT IT IS IMPORTANT, THAT YOU NEED IT AND IF YOU LOST IT IT WOULD NOT BE GOOD. SO SHUT THE FUCK UP. I HAVE NEVER ONCE TOUCHED YOUR PHONE WITHOUT PERMISSION UNLESS IT WAS TO TAKE IT TO YOU. I CAN UNDERSTAND YOU GIVING THAT TALK TO MY BROTHERS, BUT SAYING YOU WILL PUNISH US ALL IF ANY ONE OF US TOUCHES IT? NO. NO NO NO. AND THEN SAYING BASICALLY 'IF YOUR MOTHER DOESN'T LIKE IT SHE'LL JUST HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT'? SHUT UP, YOU ASSHOLE. AND THEN HE SAYS SOMETHING ABOUT HE SHOULDN'T BE GETTING PUNISHED FOR SOMETHING.
No. No no no no no. NOW HE'S A HYPOCRITICAL ASSHOLE. I don't know if any of you remember when I posted about this, but I sure do because I was talking about today to my mom and godmother. One day when he was taking me to school he got pulled over by a cop and the idiot didn't use common sense and freaking pulled over right in front of the on ramp. When the cop finally got him to go forward more so that we wouldn't get hit by a car, the cop came aroun to the passenger side window, where I was sitting, and started yelling at him. IN. MY. FACE. (I don't know if it would have just riled him up more, but I really wish I had had the guts to ask the cop to stop yelling in my face. I don't have ANY control over my uncle, it isn't fair that I should have had to deal with someone yelling in my face because of him.)
And then, and then, my mom comes into the the room and she's crying and she tells him to stop and pretty much pushes us out of the room. LOOK, MY MOM GETS ON MY NERVES SOMETIMES, AND SHE DOES PLENTY OF THINGS THAT I DON'T APPROVE OF, BUT YOU MAKE HER CRY AFTER ALREADY PISSING ME OFF? OH NO, I'M ABSOLUTELY LOATHING THAT MAN TONIGHT.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, MAYBE I SHOULDN'T BE THIS MAD, BUT HIM GIVING ME THAT TALK KNOWING FULL WELL THAT I AM ONE OF THE MOST RESPONSIBLE PEOPLE IN THE HOUSE WHEN IT COMES TO TECHNOLOGY? I CAN TELL YOU, I WAS ACTUALLY RESTRAINING MYSELF FROM SPEAKING OUT AND/OR RUNNING OUT OF THE ROOM. I'm not normally this angry of a person, and I don't know what part of it triggered this rage in me, but I'm betting on the fact that HE THREATENED TO HIT ME IF ONE OF MY BROTHERS, WHO I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CONTROL OVER, MESS WITH HIS PHONE AGAIN. Oh, but I did speak out at least a little. My cousins live across the street but they come over enough that it doesn't really matter. So I asked him why he isn't telling them this. "They aren't here. They are part of that household, not this one." FUCK. THAT. THEY ARE YOUR GRANDCHILDREN, THEY COME OVER ENOUGH THAT THEY CAUSE THEIR FAIR SHARE OF TROUBLE, FUCK BLAMING IT ALL ON MY BROTHERS. It's not their fault that when you first got the damn phone you let them play with it. PLUS MY BROTHERS JUST GOT BACK FROM A TWO WEEK STAY IN TEXAS YESTERDAY. FUCK YOU IF THEY CAN'T REMEMBER ALL THE RULES, KNOWING MY FATHER AND GRANDMOTHER THEY PROBABLY LET THOSE LITTLE BRATS RUN WILD. UGGGGGGGGGH.
I guess another reason I'm so angry about it is that I was in a groove, I was finally starting my homework, I was being productive and there is NO WAY that I can get mack into it now. If I was all jittery and barely preventing myself from checking my email or starting to read another fic, there is no way in Hell that I'm going to be able to focus now that I'm all riled up. I'm going to take a shower, and hopefully I'll be calm enough to try again afterwards. Really though, he better hope that he doesn't need me to do something for him anytime soon, because, sure, I'll do it because I hate getting in trouble and standing there being lectured (ESPECIALLY WHEN I'VE DONE NOTHING TO WARRANT IT. I'VE BEEN EITHER IN MY ROOM OR OUT CLOTHES SHOPPING ALL DAY, THERE'S NO WAY I COULD HAVE MESSED WITH YOUR PHONE, FUCK YOU VERY MUCH) but I will probably be cursing him in my mind and giving him the deadliest glare I can manage.
Ok, I've tried to end this twice already but I just got started again. I will say this: I don't cuss out loud. Normally, I don't even cuss that much in my mind, so the fact that there is so many four-letter-words in that rant is a testament to how angry I am. Also, I'm not exactly disrespectful. I may not like my uncle very much but I'm very intimidated by him so even privately I wouldn't normally be so horrible, but like I said, he made my mom cry, he threatened me, and he just made me more pissed off than I can remember being in a long while. I realize he's fucking old, but still.
EDIT: Dammit, now I'm angry at myself. My aunt came in to check on me, and I told her that I was angry at him because I had to stand there and listen to him, and she gave valid reasons as to why he did it.
Yes, the threatening was uncalled for, but she says he did it to hopefully convince my brother (who DID have it this time) to leave the phone alone. Unfortunately, I can see WHY he was angry because the same brother has taken my ipod before. (And the little fucker lent it to his friend at school. Luckily I got it back, but still.) So. Now I'm not as angry as before, I am angry but it's not so much targeted at him as it is just general anger at being lectured to/yelled at. Still, it felt good to write this all out, it honestly did release some of my anger so I'm not going to just delete it.